I had thought about my work lately, Whenever I wrote something I felt it's very cringey to me. And even I notice I'm not good in writing my own story, I don't have any self confidence at all. I still remember that day when I showed my story book (a fanfiction) for the first time, my teacher laugh when reading it. The teacher asked me what I want to be and so I said I want to become a novelist one day and then... Well he said that I shouldn't be a novelist because how I wrote, it's... Like my motivation to become a novelist crashed within the eyes.
I wanted to shake it off but I just seems can't do it, I stressed and lost so many ideas on what to write, even I lost my creativity in myself. I wanted to be good at drawing but my sister said it's better be not because I'm not good either, singer? That's like a bad idea because I had bad singing voice. I'm jealous of people that had their own talent in something, I still want to find mine but it's doesn't go no where there.
Am I venting? Sorry if I'm venting in here, I just want to get it out from my chest somehow.
