yuu-kun

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          Don't do any se*ual online role-playing if your young while on a kids game, if someone starts it first. Leave. They know you are young, your on a kids game ffs. Don't be like me, I am now hypersexual because of it. I hate it, they knew I was young yet did it. It is not your fault of you did or continued it. They were the adult, you were just someone they wanted to control.
          
          Know that even if you don't care about yourself, I care about you. Do what helps you even if it gets tiring, just take a quick break. I don't want you to go through what I went through.
          
          I will now be permanently logging off but leaving my account up to show that times don't stay tough. Things can get better and will.

Uppdate:
          
          I've been doing better I think. I can go to school and do normal stuff. I'm on medication and no longer going to therapy. I do have muscle and bone problems hopefully that gets fixed after 7 years of pain. I'm in my senior year now. Dad wants to act like a father for me and my brother. It's too late for him and my brother to reconcile, he's going to collage now. Why couldn't he have done this when we where younger? If he didn't want to be a father he should have let us been raised by mom and grandpa.
          
          I'm no longer someone who has blind love for my family. My sister is trying to come back into our lives now. She said she "raised us" to me and my brother. How could she say that? How dare she?! She hasn't been here for so long! I don't even remember her!
          
          If father leaves, then he leaves. My mother is not perfect, she fought with dad in front of me when I was younger, I know and accept my trauma from it due to helping my mental health. They were yelling fights from when he would cheat. He controls her so much she wasn't "allowed" a job, not allowed to go to the market unless I was there or anywhere in fact. I don't want to get married to someone if their like my father, he is so rude and mean to my brother that he was supposed to raise when he was younger. All because he wasn't "normal", my brother is dyslexic so he acts differently.
          
          I'm just getting though life.
          I have two bunnies now! So that's really nice. Everyone who possibly reads this, don't be afraid to get mental health. Don't stay with someone if they are toxic to your mental health, I can't leave because I don't have a job and I'm still a minor and my mom wants to still be with dad. Talk to someone if you are having trouble. 
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On 8/23/25 my brother "chulo" has passed away. My dad's not doing well, I love him we've been reconciled for awhile.
          He was murdered, instantly died.
          He was a security, he was good. Just like my other brother, why do the good people die? Why? 
          I hope you are watching over my other brother  junior, chulo, rest in peace.

I will never trust anyone who cheats on me, for what cheating has done to my mom. I will never cheat on someone.
          It's been bad this year, my dad thinks his life is shifty and that no one loves him. Yet he's been cheating on my mom with two women, thinking my mom will always stay with him. He's unhappy yet I've loved him, don't know if I love him as much anymore. 
          He has his life to live, if he wants to leave ilk let him leave. I'll check on him because my mother worries about him, once he ends up better. I'll slowly drift away from him.
          8/20/22

On 2/25/22 my middle brother passed away due to a accident by a car. It's been tough, I'm trying to not give up. Hopefully when I write here again I'm better mentally.
          (3/3/22)

So today I really liked someone and we where playing minecraft, I was platonicly married to them. Then we chatted and they said some sexual stuff and i started panicking and lost all feelings for them. I was uncomfortable, guess I really am asexual.
           Because I'm able to read stuff like smut as long as there is no pictures or sound of it. I guess even being involved or spoken too about it or it being displayed infront of me like kissing or sexual stuff really makes me uncomfortable.

My board is a safe space for the lgbtqia+ and people that are going through stuff.
          I myself am going through some stuff, so you are able to vent and write your progress of what is going on through your life here.
          Like if you are getting therapy or how you feel one day and then the next.
          Whether you feel you need help with the lgbtqia+ others can help you here aswell or you can ask me. I will help you as much as I can even if you don't feel like you can do the same for me, or we can help each other.
          I hope for you and I to have a safe place, that is chosen to either be connected or not to life besides our phone or tablet. This can be helpful for you if you choose so, or can help your friends if needed.
          You can list what you like, or situations you need help understanding of what happened that day. Or just giving a story to tell.
          Whether the story is funny or sad, or even wholesome.
          Just add some slight warnings for people that just wanna get something off their chest without staying.

Okay so I'm Ace or atleast on the Ace spectrum, becaus ei can read smut but not see smut or hear it. I usually would read smut a little if I was bored,but I just noticed I really like the more platonic stuff in omegaverse. Like if omegaverse was platonic,I would love it so much.

Just looked up more of asexuality, and I for sure am asexual, and panromantic. 

Damn I'm having a sexualility and gender crisis again. Might be asexual panromantic, idk cause i was told my mental illnesses will make me question whether I feel family love or love towards friends. 
          I just can't think of kissing or having sex with someone, but I'm fine reading stuff with it but not seeing it or doing it. Might be genderfluid, just wanna wear whatever I'm feeling.