@BomKaiPlow im sure you did ur absolute best u could. I feel like you did. You still think about them rn, is a sign that you could of done the best you could cause ur still caring for them even after death. Unlike other people who might of wouldnt care and would of just dropped the whole situation in a week. Im sure e u tried ur best.
And yeah thats tough now knowing the true reason about why youre not goina make a new artbook. Im still very sorry for your lost. I bet they were an amazing person.and youre welcome ^^´ and that may take some time to leave a fandom but hey
What ever u do, ill be right by ur side along the way as much as i possibly can. :')