Z

I loved you, you made me, hate me
          You gave me hate, see?
          It saved me and these tears are deadly
          You feel that I rip back, every time you tried to steal that
          You feel bad, you feel sad?
          I'm sorry, hell no fuck that
          It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife
          This strife, it dies, this life and these lies
          And these lungs, have sung, this song, for too long,
          And it's true, I hurt too, remember I loved you
          
          I've, lost it all, fell today, it's all the same
          I'm sorry oh , I'm sorry, I'm sorry, no
          And I've, been abused, I feel so used, because of you
          I'm sorry oh , I'm sorry, I'm sorry, no
          
          I wish I could have quit you, I wish I never missed you
          And told you that I loved you, every time I fucked you
          The future that we both drew, and all the shit we've been through,
          Obsessed with the thought of you, the pain just grew and grew.
          How could you do this to me?
          Look at what I made for you, it never was enough and the world is what I gave to you
          I used to be love struck, now I'm just fucked up,
          Pull up my sleeves and see the pattern of my cuts
          
          And I've, lost it all, fell today, it's all the same
          I'm sorry oh , I'm sorry, I'm sorry, no
          And I've, been abused, I feel so used, because of you
          I'm sorry oh , I'm sorry, I'm sorry, no
          
          Seems like all we had is over now you left to rest
          And your tears are dried up now, you just lay without a sound
          Seems like all we had is over now, you left to rest
          And my fears are over now
          I can leave with my head down
          
          And I've, lost it all, fell today, it's all the same
          I'm sorry oh, I'm sorry no
          And I've, been abused, I feel so used, because of you
          I'm sorry oh, I'm sorry, I'm sorry no
          I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry 
          I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry 
          I'm sorry, no
          
          

Love isnt real... Its nothing but lies... This world is fucked... Even more so the people it..

I never thought
          I'd feel this
          Guilty and I'm
          Broken down inside
          Living with myself
          Nothing but lies
          
          I always thought
          I'd make it
          But never knew I'd
          Let it get so bad
          Living with myself
          Is all I have
          
          I feel numb
          I can't come to life
          I feel like
          I'm frozen in time
          
          Living in a
          World so cold
          Wasting away
          Living in a shell
          With no soul
          Since you've gone away
          Living in a world so cold
          Counting the days
          Since you've gone away
          You've gone away
          
          Do you ever feel me
          Do you ever look
          Deep down inside
          Staring at yourself
          Paralyzed
          
          I feel numb
          I can't come to life
          I feel like
          I'm frozen in time
          
          Living in a
          World so cold
          Wasting away
          Living in a shell
          With no soul
          Since you've gone away
          Living in a world so cold
          Counting the days
          Since you've gone away
          You've gone away from me
          
          I'm too young
          To lose my soul
          I'm too young
          To feel this old
          So long
          I'm left behind
          I feel like
          I'm losing my mind
          
          Do you ever feel me
          Do you ever look
          Deep down inside
          Staring at your life
          Paralyzed
          
          Living in a
          World so cold
          Wasting away
          Living in a shell
          With no soul
          Since you've gone away
          Living in a world so cold
          Counting the days
          Since you've gone away
          You've gone away
          From me

I'm really tired and bored if someone wants to talk to me go on ahead. xP

I feel as if I have caused a lot of misery in peoples lives and I feel bad with me even existing in the first place.. it doesn't really feel like I've done any good in my life and only done bad.. I've upset friends and they've ignored me for it and I want to say sorry. To be honest I don't know what I want to do anymore.. I don't want anybody to worry about me but if you want to talk to me feel free to do so.. for all my friends I have pushed away I'm sorry for being such an idiot. For all the people I've ever upset I'm sorry and I never deserved to meet you in the first place. This is Z signing out.

Anyone be down to roleplay?

Pain
          Without love
          Pain
          Can't get enough
          Pain
          I like it rough cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.

https://www.youtube.com/shared?ci=K-wiAHIWS8Q

Break!
          Away from everybody
          Break!
          Away from everything
          If you can't stand the way this place is
          Take, yourself to higher places

https://youtu.be/QkSASi_eN_k