Zandurr
Writing update one goddess of madness
It’s now being changed to “obession of madness”. The story is more about over coming obession and tragedy.
Not every story,
Has a perfect ending dears
Zandurr
Zandurr
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Systematic discontent
Love is sapposed to fill a hole,
But what if it doesn’t,
Or never did,
What if you feel motionless in a sea of motion.
It’s always you’re fault,
They always leave,
Always back at that tree,
That blasphemous tree.
Friends—like relationships
Always came and went like seasons,
One day they wore Alive,
The next as dead as chilvery.
It’s always you’re fault,
You systematically fail,
Fail at every little thing.
It’s why you probably are so attached to the limelight.
If you stay center-stage, the MVP, the everything— it won’t happen again.
Right?
Tik
Tok
WRONG.
Everything will happens again and again,
Is systematically ingrained,
You will fail—they will leave,
They will be happier without you.
They always seemed to be.
And maybe the discontent with reality,
Makes you so drawn to the fictional men,
They love you unconditionally—a golden retriever even the fictional friends,
They won’t leave you if insecurity is a beast,
A beast that eats you whole daily.
Or maybe that’s just your fucked up way of it— the fucked brain chemistry.
Back under that oak tree you sit,
Alone—abound
Systematically,
Every year, maybe some odd months.
Every year, you’re loneliness
Creeps back to haunt you,
A poltergeist to never not touch,
Maybe it’ll be different
It different won’t be.
That oak tree sits their welcoming you back, to you’re Enteral suffering.
Tik
Tok
Tok
Tok
Counting the seconds,
Where you’re their alone,
For its lead to comfort—
Awaiting for the same sysematical,
Cycle to repent.
Maybe it’ll be different this time,
Unlikely.
Zandurr
Therapy. What a healthy way to get through things :)
…and no I do not take the advice I preach through characters to other ones. Because why would I?
Zandurr
101 things not to do when the world is in covered in ink… brought to you by the god of anarchy universe Brandon.
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101. Did I mention drive?
Okay good I did.
Zandurr
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Update on: Goddess of madness, I have only made it to the forth chapter in writing it. And it’s mostly been Brandon’s point of view—this one involves a certain thing, the heatens didn’t do so well cannonly.. unless fucking/getting fucked and obessesing over lovers is requriting.
Zandurr
Started work on Goddess of madness however the chapters seem to be much shorter because I’m breaking the chapters apart by what’s going on, sense for the most part we are following Brandon’s point of view.
Zandurr
God of anarchy is officially done being written final chapter count is 27 [including bouns chapter, and end note]
Excluding the start note, translation guide & bouns chapters, end note. As of [02/11/26] we have 22 official chapters.
I hope you enjoyed it… Mia and brans book will come adventully.
-Asher
Zandurr
I’ve been asked in relation to god of anarchy if Brandon will end up with his own book, and the plan is yes. I can’t tell you when I will write it relative to this book though. Their may be time between because of how busy school makes me! And I do have to focus on my none-fanfic works between.
God of anarchy was just me—finding a ship on TikTok & a “promt” generator that made most sense for Landon and Nikolai. But I definitely tend to plan to do more of the non-connon ship books for this fandom & maybe a book or few of the next future generation.
As of right now, Brandon’s book I’m planning on making him end up with Mia, I don’t have a name or plotline really yet. (I’ll be honest my plot that was given was “sibling steals others lover” and I have always thought why not just switch Landon and Brandon’s end ships around.
I’m thinking something for it may have an element of, comfort buddies turned lovers. If that makes snese.
Zandurr
Also it was for me to test writing third person and the dynamic elements between Landon and Nikolai.
Zandurr
After many years of waiting. And trying to get an account! I finally also have an A03 account.
It’s @Ethernallyashes
Zandurr
Was gonna work on GOAN today. Ended up taking a nap—then getting very distracted by how ai is affecting mental psyche, health and literacy— along with intelligence instead.. it’s a very unseating rabbit hole…