Zelanick

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          alSO THIS IS AQUA HAHAHAH
          i made a new account bc i forgot my login info oOP

guess who's back again only for reading fanfic
          
          istg my ability to write fanfic now has just vanished

m om

hi mother

Hey Zel, I was wondering if you had any nyo ships or heta girls that you shipped for the next book?

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guys I've been ignoring wattpad for the past month or so I have 58 notifications I'm too scared and tired to look at them but I will anyway T-T
          
          hope you had fun reading that run-on sentence

Tfw you like a book but then you realize they didn't finish it
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Sadly this is also on my stories, and I feel sad-
          Im thinking of like doing multiple chapters before publishing, but like
          
          
          Slow ass updates gonna come and say yo wassup
          
          Fuck it ima publish them after editing bc who the fuck gives two shits about revising

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          (just a warning for those who dont want to read vents at the current moment)
          
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          I don't think I should be lying to my parents. I think I should be telling them the truth.
          
          I don't think I should be mentally unstable and be able to vent to my parents, but I'm scared of what they're going to say.
          
          I don't think I should be hiding my secrets from them in fear of being disowned, and suddenly unloved.
          
          I don't think I should fear being abandoned.
          
          I don't think I should have thought of running away multiple times, or edging myself closer to the knife each passing second.
          
          I don't think that on my grave one of my family members should say 'She couldn't take a joke seriously'
          
          I don't think I should be able to not come out to them, because "family cares about you and will always love you."
          
          I don't think I should be this scared of my family, my parents.
          
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          I don't know how to end this vent, but for those listening, thank you for listening. I don't exactly know how to vent??? Im not very good at it? Im trying to learn how to vent without cursing(my way of expressing myself to calm down) or breaking multiple toothpicks. So yeah, thanks. I really need to get that out my head since I've been having this problem for about a year or two, now. I haven't exactly gotten it out of my head, but I really do hope the problems I've listed will be cleared, and will help me be a more energetic person just like I was before.
          
          I guess I found out why I'm so quiet now compared to the last time I saw my cousins.
          
          Thanks for listening, and goodbye!

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          I find it a little disappointing that I had to delete about a portion of my hetalia downloads(300+) that showed any of my gay ships. As a Filipino(filipina?) born into a christian family, I know almost for certain that I may be disowned by my parents for having such pictures or even coming out to them.
          
          I find it disappointing that for the first half of school I had to mourn the day my mom comes home from work, scrambling to see if my room is clean, if I'm doing everything right, to get off my phone, pretend I'm doing something important, or hell, even just sleep to avoid her. I don't think parenting is fearing doing something wrong. I think parenting is something where you should learn from your mistakes. I understand there is a time where you really do have to scold the child, but it shouldn't be monitored with fear.