The early relation folly of Edinburgh fireworks jolly
And perhaps some rainy day without blowing windy
The rain forests of Indonesia where without doubt fine
Buster, Katie, Hugo, and Larry doggies 
And lots of happy family growing up times
The 80th birthday in America was funny with joy
The life could have been bonny and shined
But in the end all of this has been called on time
And the end of it all is most definitely un-sublime
My life is in tatters and so does any of this matter
I have soaked in the bath and just can't believe it
Watching Match of the Day and wonder if I will make another day
Crisis team are due to call and that does not matter to me at all
Quite absolutely my life is not worth living anymore 
Wish I could execute and make death part of my life worth it's 
I feel like a volcano that cannot perform its stupendous eruptions 
A cartwheel that just so not managed and mangled 
A rubix cube that is totally unsolvable in complexity
An unnerving feeling that I can't have anyone next to me
Can't believe my life that has come to be
And living it from now I just can't see
Let alone any point in the future in years 
The only option is to end it in tears
Perhaps there won't be any more beers
For the dread, wanting and terrible fears
It has certainly gone on for to many years
I just can't help feeling that my death in pending 
And sense that it definitely the ending
And where I will end up has no bearing
For the wrench of my heart and mind fearing
And life is certainly not worth living
And at Christmas there was no giving
And now it is sure and no way thanks giving 
There is a terror of ingesting any fodder
Because all it will do is make me feel so much odder
I just feel the dice have been cast and meeting the maker is even nearer
Not that this man is no way religious, quite obviously that was clear
And he categorically would not shoot any bear or deer
And also for the meek and mild he would treat quite dear
And always would heartily cheer, for anyone to hear