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Guys i know i have to read some of yours books but i cant im struggling with some issues and i promise i will as soo i i get back on my legs

IT'S SPOOKY MONTH!!!!!! 

@ SerialDesinationLink  thabks-

I have been asking my existence even when knowing it already. I am struggling with ADHD and high level of anxiety. I can not focus. I feel that the world wants me dead. I feel a weight on my shoulders everytime i breathe. I feel my hand shivering when holding the blade above my knees. I feel i dont have enough space. I feel helpless. I feel dead.
          
          The only humans-limitated positive thing that i believe in is love. I feel that only looking at somebody makes my day better. How about... a small touch? 

@ DustDustDustsans  remember that you have changed your name. Keep it all in my mind

Hey its idontknowwhatiakdoing i changed my username but anyway you doing good today 

@ idkwhatiakdoning  you never know

@ idkwhatiakdoning  thanks, and im sorry for ur loss, i dont think that mt grandma has much kore either, and im so sad about it

I am so glad I left Bucharest.
          
          Some years ago, I left Bucharest to another place. There I had a lot of friends (and now I don't,  just that nobody likes me) and even a boy that I really liked. That guy and I were hanging out A LOT, and I could tell he liked me too because we were super cheesy and stuff. He had some mental problems that made him pretty autistic, and people in my school didn't talk to him, but i liked him that way. We moved on some years ago, and I kinda missed him until I forgot everything. 
          
          Some days ago, I just found out he died because of pulmonary cancer (nor from inspiring cigarette's smoke or him smoking himself, he had born with it), and I felt really bad. I am so happy I wasn't there when he died because for sure we would get along in less than some weeks since I told him I like him many times and he did so too (so, basically, we were already dating... right?) And i am 100% sure that his death would have broken me into pieces. I am getting over stuff like this very hardly, and I end up hurting myself over things that Ive done in the past that I can no longer fix them, such as saying a sorry or telling somebody something important.
          
          And I am happy, not because he died, but because that I dont think I would ever fall for  anybody else if we would have shared 4 years hand in hand. 
          
           I am so sorry for his mum, good my mother convinced her to get him a brother, cause if the poor woman didn't have one more kid, she would go insane after her son's death. 
          
          To be honest, before finding out about his death, i was thinking of going back sometime and saying hi. I didn't have any of his socials, and I could message him nowhere. Rest in peace, my former beloved.

Md ended but shit- im not sad at all. Maybe a little. I thought i will be tho. Glitch will make more mini episodes yayyy but also, fick glitch, no nuzi kiss, eh. At least nuzi is canon :>