Zippy105
Might return to wattpad?? Art book spam maybe??
For real though I miss it here. There are a lot of friends that I just haven’t talked to in forever because of wattpad inactivity.
Zippy105
Zippy105
@TTFReincarnate I BEEN PRETTY DED TBH BUT WHOOO
Zippy105
@TTFReincarnate WOAH HIIII
Zippy105
Two years from its original publication, Blizzard Heart chapter 1 finally has a rewrite. The story has been changed and is more existential and less cluttered than the original. I actually have an idea about how to write it now. Also, happy New Year.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/165762014-blizzard-heart-a-pokemon-fanfiction
Zippy105
Wow i’ve been dead
Zippy105
I need to finish what I've started. My passion for writing hasn't faded. There are still people I care about here. People that have given out such good advice and support, it honestly made me tear up. I'm going to try and complete Blizzard Heart, Voltaic Clockwork and Rose Blood, because these are the books that make me most happy, the ones that I haven't completely retconned. A dear friend told me to write for me, do what makes me happy. And that's what I intend to do. I can't promise I'll be that active, as I'm still not comfortable browsing the interface for some reason, but I'll do my best to read things I care about.
I'm sorry, and thank you.
TheStormgod
You’re honestly amazing. Just know that I’ll be there to read as much of what you put out there as I can <3
Zippy105
@Fistmen_Overkill It's a year and a half old. I never really knew what I wanted to do with it either. If I did continue it, I'd have to rewrite it.
Zippy105
This announcement has been a long time coming. I'm thinking of leaving Wattpad. This may come as sort of a surprise, as I never really voice problems I'm having anymore. Heck, I hardly talk about ANYTHING anymore. This is contributed to a few things, mainly a shift in my interests and focuses and my general mood. I'm not active. I never write. The last I posted was maybe three months ago, and I don't care enough to check. All my writings are probably at least a year old, and are just gathering dust. I have no motivation to re-write them or finish them, as, once again, my interests have changed. I don't wanna write about Pokemon anymore. I still love it, but I can't write about it without being restricted by cannon or my own mind. I want to explore the darker parts of my imagination, but using Pokemon as an outlet for that is a terrible idea. CHILDREN are reading these stories that I write. Not everyone who reads them is a child, but Pokemon is a child-directed game. There are bound to be children who stumble upon my books about Pokemon ripping each other's organs out. I don't wanna be responsible for ruining someone's innocence. If I shifted to another fandom which is more adult centered, I'd be abandoning the following I'd garnered from writing Pokemon and still have the same problems. What if a child stumbled upon one of my gorey books? What if I lose the following I tried for three years to gather? When I look at Wattpad, I don't feel joy, I feel dread. What type of commitments did I make that I'm not able to carry out? Who have I hurt in my years here? This place carries so many memories, memories of my depression, mood swings, and of me hating myself. All that comes rushing back whenever I open it up. Writing is an outlet for me, but I'm afraid to put anything out there. I cringe everytime I look at my profile and the things I've written. It's all stuff written by a 12 year old who didn't know anything about anyone and was far too young to be doing anything.
TheStormgod
I’ma be real, I’ve never gone through half the stuff a ton of people I know have, and that seems to include you. So I don’t know if I can offer the best advice. But I may as well try.
It’s completely understandable that you’re growing uncomfortable with/out of the Wattpad scene—you’re definitely not the first person I know on here that has (see every single one of my IRL friends lol). If you end up leaving, I won’t be upset; not because I don’t care about you as a person, but because I’ll know that you’re doing what you think is best for yourself. That’s the most important thing.
And I don’t know whether or not you need to hear this, but if writing is as much of an outlet as you say, don’t be afraid to keep writing about whatever. You don’t have to post it anywhere, just write stories for yourself. Even though I still post what I write on here, at the end of the day I’m not writing for anyone but me, really. I know I can’t speak for you, but I still find that mindset very healthy, and it makes writing very enjoyable.
Let me just conclude by saying, thanks. You were one of the very first people outside of my IRL friend group that seemed really invested in what I was putting out, and looking back at my old stuff from 2018 and seeing your old comments still makes me extremely happy. Even though I was writing for myself, I felt so happy that someone was willing to tag along and make the experience even better. Don’t feel bad that that’s not how things are now, though—“Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened” and all that. So from the bottom of my heart, just thank you so so much.
NarutoTheIconshipper
@Zippy105 I almost forgot to mention that the other ingredients are like your friends, they face obstacles in their life, but they'll help you out to become the best dish ever. So whatever the decision you choose, we'll help out in understanding.
NarutoTheIconshipper
@Zippy105 Let me give you some tiny advice for ya. If you ever feel depressed, eat your favorite food, chocolate cookie for instance. Now, imagine what ingredient that was used to make it, like chocolate for example. Now, imagine that chocolate is your life and the chef is the obstacle of your life. The chef breaks, chop, and melt the chocolate mercilessly, it's like when you receive a horrible obstacle in your life. But what happens after that chocolate got melted? It was used to make that chocolate cookie that you ate and you loved. No matter how tough life is, you'll become something better in the end, like that chocolate who faces though process and become a tasty dish at the end. Don't forget that your life is still long, and you have a lot of potential. No matter what happened, what matters is that you can take on that obstacle and become the best dish at the end.
LittenIsSwagg67
Hey buddy. How ya doing? :3
Zippy105
@Fistmen_Overkill probably a month at this point
Zippy105
@Fistmen_Overkill I didn’t see this until now