Zoi333

There was a little girl,always weird,always slow,she didn't understand the world and the world didn't understand her either
          	The adults around her always compared her development to her peers,day by day her self esteem broke until she thought of herself as good for nothing,a good for nothing,stupid girl,always slow, always stupid can't do anything right,there were efforts to change her,to 'improve' her but matter how hard they tried nothing changed,even the girl wanted to change but just couldn't,the shame and guilt of 'not trying' ate her every single day yet she couldn't change,she couldn't understand the things that were a struggle seemed so 'normal' to everyone,she continued blaming herself yet no improvement,nothing changed.slow in studies,slow sports,slow in playtime,slow in daily chores
          	"Are you stupid ? you can't do anything right" this is what she grew up hearing and she grew up  to become a people pleaser,someone who was quite,someone who was small, someone who believed advocating for herself is selfish,that she is already so flawed and people are tolerating her then why does she deserve anything nice  she didn't want to be called stupid and idiot again,until she got a phone and went on social media and realised so many people who suffer from the same things and more often than not are diagnosed with ADHD,a deeper dive into the condition and it's symptoms explained her life to the core, it's only now she is considering that perhaps this is not her fault,perhaps she was wired differently,perhaps she needs to start treating herself differently but the struggle is still there because she doesn't have access to an official diagnosis,sometime it even comes to her mind that what if she is just making excuses for herself?what if she is just lazy but so far only she knows how hard she wanted to live a normal life , how much she wanted to get up and do all the things her parents her family expects her to do ......

Zoi333

There was a little girl,always weird,always slow,she didn't understand the world and the world didn't understand her either
          The adults around her always compared her development to her peers,day by day her self esteem broke until she thought of herself as good for nothing,a good for nothing,stupid girl,always slow, always stupid can't do anything right,there were efforts to change her,to 'improve' her but matter how hard they tried nothing changed,even the girl wanted to change but just couldn't,the shame and guilt of 'not trying' ate her every single day yet she couldn't change,she couldn't understand the things that were a struggle seemed so 'normal' to everyone,she continued blaming herself yet no improvement,nothing changed.slow in studies,slow sports,slow in playtime,slow in daily chores
          "Are you stupid ? you can't do anything right" this is what she grew up hearing and she grew up  to become a people pleaser,someone who was quite,someone who was small, someone who believed advocating for herself is selfish,that she is already so flawed and people are tolerating her then why does she deserve anything nice  she didn't want to be called stupid and idiot again,until she got a phone and went on social media and realised so many people who suffer from the same things and more often than not are diagnosed with ADHD,a deeper dive into the condition and it's symptoms explained her life to the core, it's only now she is considering that perhaps this is not her fault,perhaps she was wired differently,perhaps she needs to start treating herself differently but the struggle is still there because she doesn't have access to an official diagnosis,sometime it even comes to her mind that what if she is just making excuses for herself?what if she is just lazy but so far only she knows how hard she wanted to live a normal life , how much she wanted to get up and do all the things her parents her family expects her to do ......