Smol Emo Kitty

Hellow kitty-cat. I uhhh... Hellow nothing just interested in messaging in ur message board ≧ω≦

H-hi kitty cat! I-I'm Jordan and I'm a wolf!

Oh! And thanks for 710 followers!! Means a lot!

Finally gonna delete, "My Only Light".
          
          Also, I'm actually working on some things, some books and book plans. Just things that probably won't get anywhere. But yeaaaaaah...
          
          Small updates here and ther from now on in the future.

Today is my birthday.. Another year closer to death, yay

Hey guys! Been quite awhile, eh? It sure has been, well!!
          I'm here to drop by and say that I will be moving my books onto my somewhat new account. @_-Happy_Kitty-_
          
          Also, wow, 695 followers! Hope I can reach 700 soon!!
          
          I won't be on here much, by the way. Won't be here on Wattpad much, because taking time off from it somewhat helps me. So yeah!
          
          Signing off now! Bye!!

So... After debating on posting this or not.. As you can see, I chose to post this for you all to read. Enjoy it, worry for me, ignore me, do whatever. I don't fucking care anymore...
          
          I feel dead inside.
          But then again, that's almost everyday.
          It's an on and off thing for me to actually feel happy.
          And I do smile and what not. But... It's mostly fake..
          And I try, I really do try to be happy. And smile, and be all fine for everyone.
          Because I don't like it when people worry over me, because it makes me feel like I'm a bother. And I know I shouldn't feel that way, but I do. And.. It sucks...
          Depression so far has been on and off. Drastic changes, one moment I'm all happy, the next I'm crying.
          And I hate it. I hate it. I HATE IT.
          It's slowly killing me, from the inside out. And I can't hold on. I can't, I try, and try. But I can't.
          I have so many friends, and yet. I feel so alone. So damn lonely..
          And I hate it. I really do.
          All day today, I felt off. I felt like there was something wrong with me. I felt empty. I felt lonely. I felt dead inside.
          Am I too needy? Too selfish? Too clingy?
          Questions I ask myself almost everyday, questions that make me feel as though I need to change myself. Change myself for others.
          And I've done that before, played as something I'm not. Acted like some chracter I've made for myself.
          And in all honesty, it hurt more than it should've... It felt like I was being stabbed, constantly.
          And I've cried more times than I should've. Cried until I couldn't produce more salty tears. Cried until it was hard to breathe. Cried until all I wanted to do was pick up the razor. Anything really. And hurt myself more.
          Cause that's all I can do, hurt myself. My own self distructive thoughts, bringing me down everyday.
          And I'm tired, I'm exhausted. Tired.. Is all I've been feeling like lately.
          I'm really, really tired.

@_-Memeow_Kitty-_  *hugs u and nuzzles *

I needz attention.
          
          Hugs.
          
          Pets.
          
          And a buddy.
          
          
          Is there anyone who can help me?
          Please?

Anyone wanna rp?
          
          Smut most preferred please.
          Please, anyone?