_-br0ken_-

I have two crushes.
          1st: I dont know what i did with him, he kust stopped talking, like we talked 24/7. Then he just stopped. Now its been two months. Today I was on snapchat and i asked him a question, a simple question, which doesnt matter that much. He responded with idk. So i finaly asked him what i did and he responded with what, i asked again, i told him to speak, he said the fuck. Then i told him that i know theres something happening and that he cant hide that and that he can stop being an asshole and stop ignoring. And then he sent me black screen with "Women..." and i sent "You are a major dick, do you know that?" and thats how we ended.
          
          2nd: They are too close, i dont want to lose them, im never going to ask them

Can i just say that theres a human that helps me not to just end it all.
          
          She helps me, supports me, knows how to help me so I just wont end it all..
          
          Shes the only reason I dont want to make suicide:
          1. Even tho its hard for me to believe, she constantly tells me theres no way of her living without me and i dont want to take that away from her
          2. She said that i help her too, a lot.
          3. I dont want to hurt her
          
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          I know theres my family and well yes i love them too but shes just the main reason.
          
          

I know people would look at me different if i had more followers like
          
          Admit it why would someone follow a depressed emo with literally no followers
          
          Im not asking to follow maybe just leave a cute message cause those can really help someone when they are suffering from depression isnt that right

I'm trying to make my thoughts leave by playing fucking crossyroad

Why do i need to fuck up every relationship
          
          Literally theres no week i dont fight with someone that means a world to me
          
          I know what they say; you fight just with the ones you truly care about, yeah thats true
          
          And i know that no relationship is flawless but really
          
          Come on universe hates me

Call me Hannah

"I felt bad for so long 
          That when I'm not feeling bad
          It's the same as if I'm not 
          feeling
          anything
          at
          
          al"