Fabulous Sinner

No one noticed then again how could they I don't say much I like to feel pain alone SOMETIMES 

You would lay on your back sleeping at peace with the world I would lay on my side and just cry 

If I thought it was hard falling asleep the first time I had no idea try the second especially after receiving bad news thank you because you didn't want me to be the last to know!!

2:00 in the morning you called me to see what I was doing I yelled it's two you called Bering bad news grandmother is sick again it most serious it's been she's getting surgery I talk to her she knows I love her and she loves me but it wasn't the same because it's not in person 
          10/17/17
          2:23 AM

I'm disappointed in myself because my cousin asked me who was the first person I wish I could be with my answer was you z I guess a part of me still has attachment to you!!!

I learned how to turn envy into encouragement 

Church can't save you in this line of work sweetheart 

Fear makes me pray which is ironic because if I prayed more often I wouldn't have fears

Another conversation gone sour because of you and your jealousy 

Mother's Day 2017 I didn't even wish a happy Mother's Day now it's Father's Day and I'm praising my dad and regret not doing the same for you but u betrayed me in ways I'll never forget ways he's never has but I forgave but I wish I could forget this guilt of today for the one time I gave you a taste of your own medicine!!!