Oh wow, I'm slowly becoming a sociopath.
I'm sitting at my table and I had shipped school because my step dad is taking me to a Royals game. And I guess I'm excited, I'm just neutral. But mother asked me to show excitement because she hasn't seen it. So I told I don't know how. And she rambles but one sentence catches my attention.
"You can't just turn off your emotions like that-"
So interrupted her,
"It's not me who's turning it off." It just came out with any second though.
I knew who was turning it off, that being my demons. I've really gone numb to the pain they give me.
"Then who's turning them off?"
I couldn't just say it. I had already tried screaming it at her years ago.
So I shrugged my shoulders, "I don't know."
And as every lie I told her, she believed me. She's and everyone else around me always believes my lies. But yeah, I though I might share this mornings conversation before I pushed it aside. Have a nice day everyone