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HEY GUYS! hey. lol. it’s been a while, eh? anyways, since i actually have somewhat of a following on here and some of you actually cared and checked in while i was gone, i figured i should just clear some shizzle up for any of y’all that are still here.
around the end of 2020, i began to stray from wattpad. it is what it is. i think part of it is because i was in every single book, i ran out of things to read. i think, another part of it was that i had no damn storage on my phone so, there, wattpad was judged less valuable than those random ass memes on my camera roll.
around the time wattpad became irrelevant to me, life got kinda hard. the pandemic had already made me incredibly lonely, but now, as i always do when i start school back up, i had began to struggle in my classes. now, i won’t go into detail, but online learning was just NOT MY THING. i have adhd. i will always choose solitaire over ixl. it’s no decision. soooo, i got depressed. dad moved to a new state, i was flunking my classes more than usual, mom was on my ass like a parrot that knew three words, and yeah i vaped all the fucking time. that sucked. don’t recommend. gave me ratty hair and acne and headaches and made me even more depressed and lonely and irritable and unmotivated. lost hella weight though ;)
beginning of 2021 - threw out the poshes and the dab pens, no new year resolution just pure determination. and i quit. it was pretty damn easy, fortunately. the nicotine- didn’t even like that crap i only liked the tricks. but with the weed, i moved back to smoking bud, just made it less accessible, and that worked out.
i got into spirituality and philosophy and deeper into astrology, bought a few crystals. and i was happy. weird, right? i downloaded wattpad again a couple more times, but whatever it satisfied in me months ago, had grown to bigger and better standards. so i deleted it again.
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