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@-Sukii
اعرفه اذكره من مجرد رسائل عشواية عرفته
Ugly, racist and stupid? What is this taste, dear/:?
It's agreed, our butterfly has been officially killed.
And oh It was the worst year of my life. I didn't go to my dman graduation and I didn't go to any other related event. I wasted my efforts of years in one year because I was miserable and griving someone who didn't know I was griving , while she was living her life in the best way. I wasted everything because of my stupidity and now I am living the results of my foolish trust. I thought that I meant more to her than I really did.
It was the worst year, physically and mentally, and I started to have panic attacks. What an idiot i was?
My days have been repeating themselves for months now. I started wishing I could go back to my miserable teenage y, which at least better than my twenties. , I resist the idea of ending everything with all my energy every day.
I keep myself busy with work and go from one job to another, from one place to another, but it's no use. I've exhausted my body, but my mind hasn't stopped working.
Everything I was afraid of came true in one year in a strange way, and I'm not joking when I say that I feel a loneliness running through my bones it is driving me crazy
I feel now what Mitski meant by
"
Did its people want too much too?
And I don't want your pity
I just want somebody near me
Guess I'm a coward
I just want to feel alright"
But i who gives a shit and even if one does
What will change?
So the hell with everything i deceid to shut up and wait till i find my moment to be free
اتمنى توفيق لك بمتحانات ولا تعطي فرصة لشخص مثل هذا ولا تنزلي من معايرك لان فكرة ان ما وصل لمعايرك حتى بعد تخفضيك لها كانت علامة كافية
+ عذريني الى الان ما اعرف اعبر بعربي
