_Dadzawa_

I’m really struggling. 
          	I wanted to reach out to a friend but I can’t tell them that I’m doing poorly again when they think I’m getting better. I wanted to text them and tell them that I need them to talk to me and calm me down if they can, but I don’t want to burden them. As I was gonna text them, all I could think was: “how long is it going to take them before they get sick of me?” 
          	So I didn’t text them, I’m still crying
          	I think I’ll be crying for a while
          	This is the first time I’ve really grieved about it, I feel broken
          	
          	Jeg savner deg så mye. Jeg burde ha klemt deg mer da jeg hadde sjansen…

lilshadowwolf

@_Dadzawa_ Everyone grieves in their own way. Some take longer than others. You're not being a burden to anyone, if they're your friends then they will understand and support you and I'm sure you'd do the same for them. Losing someone is hard for anyone, healing takes time and remember we're here for you, it's okay not to be okay.
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lilshadowwolf

I have a friend who is in a similar situation irl she lost her friend years ago and she still vents and cries for them whenever their birthday or day of their death comes around. I also lost both my grandparents 10 years ago and I still miss them. It was a struggle for me too Fake smiling and pretending I'm okay was a big part of my life back then and sometimes I still do it, however if you have friends in your life that you can lean on and talk to you should. Know you have friends here too you can talk to as well and sometimes that's easier. My friend from WP got me through a lot and even though she's not on Wattpad anymore and lives in another state, we're still friends and still talk to each other. We both pulled each other up from the bottom. I really hope you find a good friend to make you smile again for real and laugh and even cry with.
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AndiPinapple

@_Dadzawa_ hey it’s alright that you rambled! i’m glad you were able to let out your emotions. i know how hard it is to lose someone and to have to fake smiles a lot. i know you say you wish you were brave enough to commit but even though it may be very tempting to do, but i’m proud of you for still carrying on despite that. i hope that you do end up feeling closer to him when you wear his vest; however, i am sure that were he here he would be proud of you for carrying on despite the hardships you have faced, are facing, and probably will sometimes face in the future. but that’s why you have us here for you. i know it can sometimes be hard opening up to someone you don’t know as well but i am so proud of you for being able to open up. and writing about all of your fears and emotions and experiences in your stories for your characters is really smart. it helps you open up in another way. and it’s alright that your mental health is slipping. it can’t be perfect all the time. but i’m glad you opened up because that can help quite a bit as i know from personal experience. you are not alone, ok? i will always be here for you with whatever you need. i wish you could feel comfortable enough with being yourself with your friends in person but it’s still amazing you can do that on here. i’ve got your back ok? <3
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lilshadowwolf

Hope you're doing okay, buddy, been a while so just checking in.

lilshadowwolf

@_Dadzawa_ That's cool, glad you're doing well. Sorry for the late reply, idk why I didn't get a notification from this. I'm doing okay 2.
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_Dadzawa_

You’re so sweet <333
            I’m good!! Started a poetry gig so I haven’t had much time to write on WP
            Thanks for checking in (:
            
            Hope you’re doing well!!
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lilshadowwolf

You've been awfully quiet lately are you doing okay, Luv?

lilshadowwolf

@lilshadowwolf Yeah, had an awakening today tho holly crap dude.
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_Dadzawa_

@lilshadowwolf 
            Yeah, I'm doing okay, had a lot happen recently and I'm still kind of processing... but I'm okay
            Thank you, you're so sweet T^T <3
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_Dadzawa_

I’m really struggling. 
          I wanted to reach out to a friend but I can’t tell them that I’m doing poorly again when they think I’m getting better. I wanted to text them and tell them that I need them to talk to me and calm me down if they can, but I don’t want to burden them. As I was gonna text them, all I could think was: “how long is it going to take them before they get sick of me?” 
          So I didn’t text them, I’m still crying
          I think I’ll be crying for a while
          This is the first time I’ve really grieved about it, I feel broken
          
          Jeg savner deg så mye. Jeg burde ha klemt deg mer da jeg hadde sjansen…

lilshadowwolf

@_Dadzawa_ Everyone grieves in their own way. Some take longer than others. You're not being a burden to anyone, if they're your friends then they will understand and support you and I'm sure you'd do the same for them. Losing someone is hard for anyone, healing takes time and remember we're here for you, it's okay not to be okay.
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lilshadowwolf

I have a friend who is in a similar situation irl she lost her friend years ago and she still vents and cries for them whenever their birthday or day of their death comes around. I also lost both my grandparents 10 years ago and I still miss them. It was a struggle for me too Fake smiling and pretending I'm okay was a big part of my life back then and sometimes I still do it, however if you have friends in your life that you can lean on and talk to you should. Know you have friends here too you can talk to as well and sometimes that's easier. My friend from WP got me through a lot and even though she's not on Wattpad anymore and lives in another state, we're still friends and still talk to each other. We both pulled each other up from the bottom. I really hope you find a good friend to make you smile again for real and laugh and even cry with.
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AndiPinapple

@_Dadzawa_ hey it’s alright that you rambled! i’m glad you were able to let out your emotions. i know how hard it is to lose someone and to have to fake smiles a lot. i know you say you wish you were brave enough to commit but even though it may be very tempting to do, but i’m proud of you for still carrying on despite that. i hope that you do end up feeling closer to him when you wear his vest; however, i am sure that were he here he would be proud of you for carrying on despite the hardships you have faced, are facing, and probably will sometimes face in the future. but that’s why you have us here for you. i know it can sometimes be hard opening up to someone you don’t know as well but i am so proud of you for being able to open up. and writing about all of your fears and emotions and experiences in your stories for your characters is really smart. it helps you open up in another way. and it’s alright that your mental health is slipping. it can’t be perfect all the time. but i’m glad you opened up because that can help quite a bit as i know from personal experience. you are not alone, ok? i will always be here for you with whatever you need. i wish you could feel comfortable enough with being yourself with your friends in person but it’s still amazing you can do that on here. i’ve got your back ok? <3
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_Dadzawa_

Requests?

_Dadzawa_

@AndiPinapple 
            
            You’re too sweet T^T (:
            
            Sure!! Sounds good!!
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AndiPinapple

@_Dadzawa_ but maybe like a singer reader?
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AndiPinapple

@_Dadzawa_ hmmm not sure. i'm sure whatever you make will be awesome
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_Dadzawa_

Requests?

Shoto_is_ADORABLE

@_Dadzawa_ ayyy thanks!
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_Dadzawa_

@Shoto_is_ADORABLE 
            Done!! Chapter's up now!!
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Shoto_is_ADORABLE

@_Dadzawa_ nah you can choose, I just like the concept with your writing style :)
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_Dadzawa_

Any stories y’all want me to continue?

_Dadzawa_

@raaayyyzz 
            Ahw, you’re too kind!!
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raaayyyzz

@_Dadzawa_ YAYYY!!!!! also i rly rly RLY love your stories!!
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_Dadzawa_

@raaayyyzz 
            Done, the chapter’s up (:
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