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I start to hate and feel resentment towards the person who started to be interested in me. Despite drawing attention to excessive care and numerous boundary crossings, he still repeats his actions. 
          
          The longer I spend with this man, the more alienated I feel and the anxiety reaches a higher level, where at times it begins to paralyze me with fear, on the verge of panic.
          
          Excessive attention, care and almost 'intrusive' pushing of my boundaries makes me seriously start to miss the moment in my life when I was constantly neglected in relationships with others. 
          At least it was calm then. Then I felt free. I want to go back to that, to the neglect that at least made everything as it was before, without radical changes. 
          
          I want my freedom.

Ayo-
          I woke up in the morning and saw that it's December 19th. So yeah. 
          From today I am 17 years old :,)
          Happy birthday to me 

Sometimes I think about starting to create something new on this platform again. I would like to, although my abilities are limited.
          
          Although maybe something will appear here in the future. Maybe you have any suggestions that would catch your attention? 
          
          After leaving the CH fandom, this profile and my psyche are healing xDD
          (But sometimes I miss this crap and people or other stuff releated with it-)

Przybywam jako 200 obserwatorka!

Jezz, I realized that soon I'll be 17-
          The older I get, the stupider I feel :,)
          My age is starting to sound more serious, but somehow I'm not getting any serious as time goes on xDD

Dziękuję za obserwacje<3

my guitar playing is getting better and better
          I can play almost 10 songs 
          (I have +10 aura-) 

Today is a bit strange. 
          
          exactly 7 years ago my life completely collapsed and it was getting worse every day. 
          
          The strange feeling is that after all these years, with my own efforts, I have built a life for myself that I never had. It's strange for me to look at my reflection, knowing that I look completely different, although in my eyes I can still see that kid whose world has completely collapsed on his head.
          
          even though today is the anniversary of one of the tragedies, for me it begins to take on a new meaning and awareness of the fact that I am still alive
          
          I will only say one thing about what I gained the most from everything I went through. It's best to follow your own path in life and not worry about what others think and how much they try to destroy your life with their hatred towards you.
          
          Fuck people ;)

Based on observations of children of that time on the Internet, I conclude that with each passing day we are moving further and further away from God-
          
          What the fuck is wrong with children/kids on the Internet? T_T

I feel like the best guitarist ever after learning to play half of "happy birthday" on the guitar (I'm delusional, I don't remember most of the names of the chords I learned-)