Sometimes I still miss her. I’m not going to lie and say that I don’t . Sometimes I see a meme or a picture and want to just send it to her. But I don’t . I know I’m the furthest thing from her mind and that’s good. We aren’t good people but when we pretend like we don’t know each other we can pretend we are angels. I’ve apologized for my sins. She probably hasn’t seen that but I did. I want the nightmares to stop and I want to be able to fall for the guy or girl who really likes me but I can’t. And that’s okay healing takes time I guess and that’s fine I just wish I could hear her name and not freeze up. I wish I could write a song and it not be about her. And I wish I could make friends without feeling guilty.
I don’t hate anyone I’m good vibes only. I have an old friend back in my life because we both grew up and grew past the bs. It’s a good life for me and to think my old friend came back through tellanom