_Gerard_Gay_

yo tubbo's singing on ranboo's stream is great-

_Gerard_Gay_

TW!! PANIC ATTACKS MENTIONED
          
          Guys I think I just had a panic attack. I don't have anxiety, so I don't know what it feels like. I had a very heated argument with my mother, and she threatened to take my electronics away. I know that sounds stupid and fake, but I rely on my electronics to give me music (which calms me down), talk to you guys/gals/non-binary pals, and reach out to my friends. I was breathing heavily, I couldn't stop crying, I was trembling so much,  and after my mother left, I couldn't stop crying for 10 minutes. Did I just have a panic attack?

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@_Gerard_Gay_  no problem luv, the song lifts my soul.
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_Gerard_Gay_

@leo_royal1407 thank you! I haven't heard the song, but I'll check it out!
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Royal-V_Writes1407

@_Gerard_Gay_ no problem! You can always dm me if you are in that type of state I am here for everyone luv! Music calms me too. Have you heard Take an angel by the wings by seal?
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_Gerard_Gay_

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TW!! ANXIETY, DEREALIZATION, AND CUSSING AT THE END
          
          
          Has anyone else felt like 2021 is off? I feel like I'm being watched, my dogs are staring and barking at something that I can't see, time is going by a lot quicker than normal, I randomly wake up at some time between 2-4 am, among us became boring, I'm seeing random shadows and figures out of the corners of my eyes, I'm randomly remembering things that happened years ago, I'm remembering memories that seem like they aren't mine, I'm hearing random noises, my mom gets mad at me for the smallest things then becomes super nice, so many of my teachers at school are leaving when they said they wouldn't, and there are two wifi networks that have weird names that show up on my laptop but not my phone. If anyone knows what is going on, then please tell me because I am about to lose my fucking mind

_Gerard_Gay_

@StraddlingMrStradlin Yeah 2021 is kind of messed up. idk what's happening though...
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StraddlingMrStradlin

I'm just seeing this now, and I actually remember replying to this, but I don't see it, but that could be my phone not working properly again
            Anyway...yeah this year is definitely really off, something just doesn't feel right and there are so many strange things, I randomly started remember stuff that happened to me when I was 2/3 and I don't remember anything from that time, and I feel weird all of a sudden, I sleep full 9 hours and I'm always tired, I never had horrible nightmares before (only a few times) and now I have them almost every second night.
            Something just doesn't feel alright
            People randomly becoming horrible, or too nice as someone said above
            This year is weird
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_Gerard_Gay_

hi im back :) how are you guys?

_Gerard_Gay_

@SnippyDaJoyfulTurtle COOL! AND YES THEY ARE
            @MCRmyKilljoy13  I'm ok thank you!
            @BlackSwan796 COOL!  wait who's boyfriend? im ok!
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BlackSwan796

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@_Gerard_Gay_ Fucking great!!!
            
            Dying here from periods and sitting as a third wheel while your boyfriend and your new friend bond...so Fucking great...
            
            
            How you doin???
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MCRmyKilljoy13

@_Gerard_Gay_ hiiiii how are you 
            
            I'm okay 
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_Gerard_Gay_

Hi I’m an idiot I could have gotten Wattpad on my phone since my mom lets me use my phone. But then again I did need a mental health break. I’m ok, but something did happen :( I realized I have a fake friend. You don’t have to read until the end but if you want to, thank you <3 from the beginning. A friend (that I completely trust, she’s been helping me through) said that while I was in the bathroom (this was right before lunch so I was going to be late) she said “welp. (My name) is going to be late today” and the girl said “I don’t care I hate her anyway” Another friend (that I trust as well) said that she told him not to invite me to a party he was having so yeah. And a few days ago she got mad at me for tapping on her shoulder to get her attention. She taps on my desk to get my attention, and I do it by tapping on her chair. She doesn’t notice, so I tap her shoulder. Fun times :) anyway how are you guys?

_Gerard_Gay_

@BlackSwan796 Yeah. I hate them too honestly. Thank you for the support! I really don’t know what else to put here so I’m sorry 
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_Gerard_Gay_

@MCRmyKilljoy13 That’s cool! I’m glad you’re ok!
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BlackSwan796

@_Gerard_Gay_ I swear........I always hated girls like these...... another reason why I don't have many girl friends........but you're amazing and amazing people don't deserve shitty people....so I just hope that you do great.......
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0cean-Avenue

Hey lovely human, accept my cuddles! ❤️
          
          Post this in everyone you care about’s wall, because everyone deserves love. 
          
          It doesn’t matter how many you get back because all you need to know is, I love you and support you, no matter what (unless you pull a Jeffery Dahmer-)