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Is there a way a young teenager to help their family with financial problems? Is there any way that I can help them? Is there simply no way to help them? I don't want to sit around and watch my family get ruined financially when I could help . This isn't a call for pity or recognition, I just want to know if I can help and how.

Just got a freaking bullet journal! I'm going to start bullet journaling y'all! I hope I can be consistent with it seems it seems really fun. I'll post the doodles and things I write in it sometimes and hopefully you can get into bullet journalling too! I already have some ideas from Pinterest and am already excited to start! 

Im going to the mall soon to go to Tmobile and I dont know how long im going to be there. Its going to be boring as heck. Someone save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
          Another Rant:
          I want to ask out my crush so badly to go to Bobalicious but I dont think theyll be interested. Plus the food and tea is expensive but SO GOOD. I dont think my mom and dad will let me go without my phone since my dad will have it for most of the time we are out. Anyways. I WANT TO SO BADLYYYYYYY BUT I DONT WANT TO EMBARRASS MYSELLLLLFFF. (Plus theyre going to say no anyways)

Im bored. Anyone up to chatting or something? I dunno 

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! My sister got me into cross stitching and oof its pretty relaxing. I finished a certain somebody that makes my heart flutter a present for either Christmas or Valentine's. Most likely for Valentine's Day. I'll probably ask them to the Valentine's Day dance if there is one. My My, Im becoming bolder and its kinda scary. Anyways, with all my gay put to the side, I hope you had a Merry Christmas and I hope you have a Happy Holiday. 

You know that realization that you have no one to be under the mistletow with and you have no one to kiss on new years day? And youre like SHIT I'm a lonely son of a BITCHELLS. And then you yeet your heart outta ya fuckin body and yell, "LONG LIVE THE LONELINESS" Yup. Thatsa Me. And no I'm not depressed or anything! Its just really funny to me and to think about...and to make fun of myself. Haha. Gud Times

Everything is crumbling....

You know.... seeing that..i don't know what to say anymore. All I do is contradict. Every word, every sentance. im the dumbass no body wants to be friends with. I'm the retarded one. I'm the one that will always die first. I'm that stupid. No matter the situation, I will always be the first one to die and to be hatred by everyone I meet. I know everyone hates me. It's a known fact. Nobody would miss me if I died. I can hear the chuckles and insults from the people at my funeral already, "She asked for it", "Finally she's gone", "why was she born in the first place", "She was a useless peace of human garbage". "She is finally dead!!", "Thank God". But I doubt anyone would coffee to my funeral. I will never have someone I love. I'll never be the one someone could love. Because I'm an ugly peice of shit you find in the garbage, an annoying fly to cannot beat,kill,get did of.

https://youtu.be/RSXiNSiiCsg why must falling in love hurt so much

Cant get slow dancing in the dark by Joji out of my head. After listening to Cavetown's cover of it I couldnt get it out of my head. It makes me feel sad but the beat and the song in general is a good bop for when youre down. Like right now. At least for me.