I just read your story, my horrible life, and I gotta say one thing. I still have my dad, but he isn't much of one. my mom and dad got divorced when in was ten, my two brothers moved away and I didn't get to see them. my and my brothers never ever got seperated, so after they left and went with my dad, I hit this anxiety patch. my mother got a boyfriend and I always got sick, almost like I was anorexic, I was so skinny. than I grew older and realized that what was going through my head was wrong. my brain told me to throw up and made me think that every time I was not home or with my brothers I had to get sick. I was very unhealthy. what I am trying to say is that every thing is equalled out, because now I get to see my brothers lot and I am much healthier, just don't hurt yourself,