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I'M SO SORRY I DIED SCHOOL GOT TO ME AGAIN!! I'll be back to writing shortly, don't worry chat....

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Bringing back story time just cause I got a thing i desire to yap about, my auntie got a bike for me back in like what, 2023? And this fatass box has just been sitting in my grandma's hallway ever since; dad and I were meaning to put together said bike but grandma and I are doing it ourselves now only because we were thinking about it and thought we might as well if he won't so yeah, thats what we're doing as of writing this; only thing is I ALSO cut my thumb so that. Uhm... yeah that hurt. Oh well, back to bike-making!

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Quick update we need to take ts to the bike shop wtf is this bro... insert multiple broken heart emojis
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https://docs.google.com/document/d/1_6hM5E38GsCHNUpEiK_hGn6TCRyE2AlcV4UPIlkWsp4/preview?pru=AAABnbrgFtE*uvcN1qBIU3LAVcDpwmi7fg&tab=t.0#heading=h.ogyj4ypsrf9y 
          
          Zeal has released a response, and I've read through the whole thing. I'm sorry, but after reading all of this, I really do believe I jumped the gun far too quickly, and as such I've taken down my previous posts. I am but another voice in the crowd of many and I ultimately do not have any effect on what happens between Ren and Zeal, but after reading this, I don't just believe, but I am mostly CERTAIN that Zeal did, in fact, NOT commit S/A, that Ren skewed evidence and left out important context to support her side (and she has said so herself), and most importantly: THIS ALL SHOULD'VE STAYED BETWEEN ZEAL AND REN. 
          
          But okay, just because of all of that, does it say that I'm on either side? I may currently believe Zeal considering everything, but at the end of the day, I'm not, for I cannot pick a side, and guess what? Neither can you! And why? We're just observers. And what I see is a mess. 
          
          Zeal had his faults. Ren had hers. But now all of this is out, one thing is certain to me: no crime happened, and now that she's accused Zeal of what can only now be proven as a lie, she can actually get in legal trouble for this, and I'm honestly disappointed because stuff like this is the reason why actual S/A victims are never believed.
          
          We all really need to stop jumping the gun on everything and I'm getting sick of people doing this, along with the fact that I kinda did so myself makes me upset. I'm obviously on neither side anymore, and I'm still gonna leave the game alone for awhile, but please don't plug your ears to anything either side may say now and in the future because this is far more complicated than "oh yeah they did this so therefore guilty-" no. Genuinely just stop and WAIT.
          
          I wish I could say support Ren but... no. Just leave the whole thing alone for now. But still, justice for S/A survivors. Ty.

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Jsyk gang, been considering voicing my stories and stuff so y'all can listen to that instead of TTS if it's even in anything I make or not and so you don't have to read it and just listen to it instead! No promises on that and won't be done for everything but you know... yeah.

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Just waddling in to say, please read I beg: as tempting as it may be, don't even THINK about touching sites like c.ai or chai. And if you're already on there, for the love of god get off and delete your account, I do not care how attached you are to it.
          
          The main reason why I vanished for about 2 or so years was because of not just burnout, but also c.ai. It ruined my desire to do anything besides waste my time on that site and feed into my struggle with what I can only assume is hypersexuality but I can't really confirm that. It ruined ME, as fun as it was. And it all started because I was curious as to what the hype was about. As much as I'll miss those times, there'll be a part of me that sure as hell won't and is forever grateful I finally stepped away and deleted that account. 
          
          The reasons why that ended up happening were horrible, but either way, I'm out of there and you should leave too, especially now with what they're doing. It provides no benefit beyond a momentary dopamine rush and it is akin to an addiction if you ask me, so get away from there and go back to your roots of writing if you were a writer! Make your own things! And if you really miss roleplaying, go on discord and find a place to roleplay, or hell go roleplay with yourself using something like tupper! I'd say it's far more fun and worth the time. Perhaps go find a DND group as well if you can! Just- ANYTHING but continuing to use c.ai.
          
          Thank you for your time.