nostalgia

Let me be quite honest. I hate you for lying. But we all lie. Small things, big things, all things. A lie is a lie. So in turn, I suppose I hate myself, as well. I guess I'm jealous of you. At least a little bit. That you could've done such a bad thing, and you still have a man who loves you. Who's willing to fight for you. That's love. Don't let it go. I've never found someone willing to fight for me. Never. I've never found someone who's willing to sacrifice for me. Keep that. Hold onto it. It's such a beautiful thing. I can't help but wonder if I'll ever have that, and I know I won't. Eli was the love of my life. I've never felt what I felt with him with anyone else. And yet, he didn't fight. He didn't sacrifice. So if the man I love most won't do that for me, who will? Some people aren't meant to exist in the world. I've recently found that I'm one of them. Stay safe. Keep Jake and Eli safe. Take care of Eddie. See you soon. 

"See you soon." 
          
          We say that to our loved ones because life is uncertain. We don't ever know when death will show you. The only certainty is that we will all die. And we will all see each other again one day soon. 

One day you'll get what you deserve. 
          And so will I. 
          
          But baby, let me make you one promise. 
          You and me? 
          We'll go down together. 

I guess even the worst people are deserving of love. 
          
          Guess that makes me worse than a catfishing bitch...hm *thinking emoji* 

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