Mistress Phantomhive

hello friends who i know are reading this. i hate you <3

HEY
          
          
          HEYYYYY

If you make a Dan and Phil video with clips of them and a really sad song, I will forever love that song and always be super sad when I listen to it. I love them. Too much.

I feel much more comfortable being on this account than I do my bigger account. Maybe it's because nobody ever has to read my writing, maybe because they don't need to hear me whine, I don't know.

I WAS CONFUSED BUT YOU KEPT YOUR OLD ACCOUNT OHHHH

The meanings of my dreams are sad. I apparently just want to fit in, I lack self confidence, I am sucking the emotional life out of people, I need to stop trying to make people happy and slow down with that, and that I have to stop feeling sorry for myself and just let myself heal.

My Opinion on Shipping:
          I ship a few gay ships, in a fictional universe. I don't think they could ever happen, and I'm super happy that a pair I ship in the fictional universe are both happily dating two amazing girls. I don't hate on them for who they are, and I know that they are not gay (Speaking specifically at this moment of the septiplier ship), but in my fictional world, who knows? Hell, I dreamt last night that Dan Howell was my age and we were playing video games very  happily together. Why? I have no idea, it's fictional life. I think people as of late have been taking things too far, and I don't believe that, that's how far you take a ship. You ship a ship separately from when you see them on the screen, it's a whole other thing. I don't comment things saying that they should date on their videos, or reply with tweets like that on Twitter. I interact with them as their real life self, as opposed to who I think of them as in my fictional universe. 
          There's a reason it's called fanfiction, and I think people need to remember that.

I just want to cry until I can't feel my heart beating anymore.
          I just want to numb these headaches that make my whole body sore.
          I just want to hide in my daydreams, away from the claws that prod at the seams.
          I just want to know how to feel real love, that it's not only a product produced by my dreams.
          I just want to learn how it feels to smile, to have the sunlight pull my lips up to the sky.
          I just want to show people who I really am in my heart, not the girl that's made out to be a lie.

I just love NateWantsToBattle's music. He is very talented and I'm super proud of how far he's come since I knew him last year. His Undertale album I was blown away by. Dead Silence is absolutely gorgeous and makes me want to dress up like Chara and be an absolute dork and sing it. And his covers of the music from the game are amazing. I don't even know how he can do it all. Love him forever and ever. <3

"And I'm just waiting, for the day you save me, from myself 'cause I can't help the way I feel for you."
          -Current Mood