Shay

Middle year of 2021 
          
          No one ever ask me what is the problem. They simple thought that Iam ok with it but truthfully it is not. 
          
          By the time, I take things by my ways they said that I make a very bad judgment, while they always show by their reactions and act that Im already incompetent. 
          
          Be R.E.B.E.L! As my head said. 
          
          Be nice as my heart said. 
          
          Thank you but no thank you. 
          
          I’ve sunk my heart my self for long enough. 
          
          Enough is enough.
          
          I cannot take it anymore. 

I always think that my parents doesn't love me as much as they love my sisters and brother but who am i to judge whether they love me or not. Technically speaking, they raise me up. Is that not a good sign that they love me. 

I think my depression start within me, my lack of confidence, body shaming, unable to accept who iam due to people perspective and cannot fights bad talk alone all by my self while im here drowning with my own thoughts.