"and because i don't want to start thinking again.
not like I have this last week.
i can't think again. not ever again.
i don't know if you've ever felt like that.
that you wanted to sleep for a thousand years.
or just not exist. or just not be aware that you
do exist. or something like that. i think wanting
is very morbid, but i want it when i get like this.
that's why i'm trying not to think. i just want it all
to stop spinning. 
if this gets any worse, i might have to go back to the doctor.
 it's getting that bad again."