You know.. it is sad when you realize how much you change with time.. like the weather... one day it can be snowy and the next day it can be hot like summer...
Once I lived with sun over me and warmth inside my heart...
Then the cold winter came... empty and cold... dark and always in a bad mood... cannot find anything to do...
But you know... during that winter I adapted to it and realized I can be at home, paint my emotions, drink a nice hot chocolate and watch a movie, read books about things I cannever have, sing and dance all by myself...
But you know what? I actually like it...
I like dancing and singing on my own because no one can judge...
I like painting my emotions on my own because I can cry my whole heart out on a painting and no one to know..
I like watching a movie on my own because I can understand it and hear it all without anyone making comments about it and let me enjoy on my own..
I like reading books about the perfect romance on my own because I can imagine the perfect person by my side, reading with me and kissing me from time to time...
I realized that it's better of me to stay alone and enjoy my life than to get in useless drama with searching the perfect person because you know what?
Perfection exists only in our imagination! There ain't perfect person! So don't try to be perfect!
Just be yourself and wait for your time to come! yeah you may think you're ugly but someone one day will look at you and is gonna say "God I'm so lucky to have such a beautiful person like you"
I realized that by being on my own I protect my heart for the right person... I mean who would want a teared up, shooted and stabbed heart with thousands of scars, right?
These scars make you feel really bad, overthink, overreact, make you more cautious and make it harder for your lover to adapt to it...
Make the right choices for your future! Don't let someone else choose your fate!
Be yourself! Love yourself!
[ Teddy ]