Ansley_Matthers

Alive for now...not sure how much longer it'll last. 

My heart hurts...

I hate everything! I wish everyone would just die! Jealousy, that's what I despise the most. It creates confusion. Why the hell would anyone be jealous of a dumbass like me. I'm not a threat. Not one bit. All I want is a friend, a brother, apparently I'm not allowed to have that. All I'm allowed to have is a few minutes to talk to someone who's mattered to me. Someone that kept me alive. But I guess that doesn't matter. Maybe I should just die...then everyone would be happy...

Well I officially hate all of life. I have this feeling, like emotionally I've been stabbed in the heart, or my heart has been torn out. The tears are flowing like a river now and I can't stop them. I guess I was right. Not even the strongest love lasts forever. 

Leave behind the bad,
          Let in the almost,
          And love what you can't let go...

-sigh- It's going to take more than a day to break down a wall that took months to build.