[ ash//shadow ]

i wanna talk to my fpsss but, whenever they dont respond and i wanna talk i basically spam them and then feel rlly guilty abt it and dont respond for hours, delete msgs or dont talk much (bc ive already said sm) or all of the above 

I followed you, please follow me back on my bio account :) @malfoyploblems

YOO 69 FOLLOWERS YCNOYCJOHSHAHAHA

should i make a book to post my random drawings i made on snap?

im now obsessed with zero day/andre nd mostly cal, and since the fandom is small theres not that many fanfics abt them :')

Goodmorning, i just woke up, and i just bit a chunk of my lip off

The scars on my thighs look weird, i don't really like them. I need to fix them and make better prettier ones.

The scars on my arm are so pretty, most of them are purple, i love them. Some of them are smaller then i like/wanted but that's ok,, :)

I would put my twt in my bio but on my twt i don't interact with any gacha/mcyt/dsmp stuff or anything like that really, i only interact with/kinda post gore and other things like that. It's also a vent account so. Also i don't really want to make a normal twt. But if you like things like that just dm me and maybe we can be friends on twt or something.

Tw/Cw: vent
          
          
          I hate how my body looks, my right upper thigh is fvcked up, same with my left arm, they're both covered in scars and other stuff. I hate how I get paranoid when wearing shorts and/or short sleeves on a shirt, I can't even wear short sleeve shirt without me being uncomfortable. I don't mind as much when I'm around my friends, because I know most of the time they won't say anything about it. My parents for the most part know about my problem, I've even asked my mom if I can get a therapist or help, just anything help, and she basically says no even though she knows about my problem. I wish I was skinnier, even though sometime you are able to see my ride. I want to be even more skinny, to where you can always see my ribs, my bones. Sometimes I barely eat, sometimes I eat more then I normally do. I wish I didn't have to eat. I wish I was never hungry. I wish my parents didn't care so much. I hate how I feel numb, like I can laugh, and smile but I don't feel happy. I don't feel sad. I just don't feel anything, and I know how stupid that sounds but it's true. I don't feel happy, not sad, I can/will cry but I don't know why. But that's normal, right? I sometimes wish I could leave, like start new, and better. Or just leave, and never come back. Nothing will ever change. I will never be able to leave, I will never be able to have freedom, or feel free, the scars will never leave, even if I try to stop I can't for very long, and this is a problem I will have to deal for the rest of my short life. Nothing will ever change, nothing will ever get better, I will never get better.
          
          I might delete but it's whatever, besides it isn't like anyone will pay any attention to it anyway.