Okay, this is actually the same person. This is my different account and I think i may start writing for fun again (like making actual stories and probably make some fanfiction idk)
I'm am in waaaaaayy better place than I thought. I don't have many friends though but I feel like I am constantly surround by love and support of others and it makes me feel great
I hope everyone else is having a good time or at least trying the best they can be. Goodluck out there for anyone and I love you all
And Ig news on the person I was with (my old 'partner' if you know what I'm going at), I'm not even sure about her condition or how she is. I felt so dragged down with her around and I was slowly losing my love for her and myself. I would make excuses to not spend time with my family and other friends. I was not only hurting myself but them as well.
We don't talk anymore (and I am glad about that in a way). And the reason why I won't stay friends with her is because at one night in our theatre class, I told her we can be friends again. I wanted to make amends and being friends again was the best way. We both had a fun night with our classes but sadly, it was destroyed by her friend attacking me on text.
Her friend told me to stay away from her because becoming friends with her again would cause more pain, anger. I thought it would be what she wanted. It didn't get better when later she ask many people to tell me that she wants to become friends with me. I was filled with anger with this. She was a coward to not come to me and tell me in person. It was the first time in my life I have ever felt so much anger towards a situation. Another person, by text, kept begging to become friends again. I would but why? I told her I would in theatre class and all I recieved was an attack by her friend. I refuse to becomes friends with her. A friend witnessed some parts of what I am telling and she can back me up on this. Anyway, I love all of you and hope each of you are living good lives.
