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Sis you're so sweet, it's not everyday I get a spam like this. Thank you so much for your support,comments, and votes. I really do appreciate them all.
          
          P.s STOP MAKING ME DIE MAN, THE OVERLOAD DJJSBXNSNNZNSNZ 
          
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I thought I was happy for a moment, I guess it wasn't forever. It was funny for me to think that something so broken could be fixed. I'm beyond repair, absolute trash that was forgotten to be thrown out.
          
          Happiness will never come for sure I guess, it's 5 am and this is all I've been thinking the whole night...my stomach hurts,I'm sweating, I tried to sleep but had nightmares, what else? What else is gonna come? 

How do you hold back from cussing someone you care about but drives you crazysmh

Crying outside in the cold. How's that? Tears can dry and injuries heal but there's always a memory of pain in it. Wondering why I feel uncomfortable or why I hate life. Your one of the reasons. I feel weak when I cry in front of you, that's why I cry outside. I know I'm better than that but I choose to lower myself. How much longer....

Happy Thanksgiving my teas~
          Hope y'all have a happy day and be grateful even if your life is bitchy like mine!
          Celebrate with family or pets.
          There's hope in the smallest things,love.

Isn't it just weird? One moment you're smiling then the next you're sobbing. But I guess life's just like that. It's a bitch we all have to face and deal with. But it's cute, how it brings people down and puts others higher. Yet the ones who should be happy aren't and the ones who shouldn't be happy are.
          
          I've tried searching for true happiness but it left me long ago. It just blinds you from the real problems. I have so many secrets I want to spill and forget but no, they pile up and soon enough the pile will be too big to hide.
          
          I've come to think I'm worthless and pathetic but I don't know if it's a lie or a truth I want to ignore. It's been ignored so far but for how long will it last? She's done so much yet she's still smiling. I've done only a little but yet I'm still here, crying in pain.
          
          Life's just another word for hell. People laugh at it and say it'll go away. "It's just a phase" or "You'll get over it" but is it really? Do they ever become truly happy?
          
          Yeah they act like their lives are all put together but if you look close enough you can see the smallest cracks and imperfections. I guess we just have to deal with it and try to ignore it.
          
          I'm probably gonna regret writing this later but what the hell. I'm done hiding what I feel. Even if it's just for today, I want to see myself as something more than trash. True or false, I might have a meaning in life.
          
          

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