@_Stowe_ People do care.
Sometimes, they just can't be there, or can't understand, but they do care. Sometimes they're scared, afraid to say something wrong, or not even knowing what to do at all...
I have absolutely no idea what you're going through right now, and I'm sorry. But I'm 100 percent sure there are people who DO care about you. If you need to vent, I might not be online as much as I'd like to, but I'd love to help...
Just talk to your friends, get your feelings out, breathe, relax. People care. No one is "trash" or simply "a mistake". We are all just humans, we have flaws and qualities. We can't always be right or succeed