I think been dealing with gender dysphoria, but I never had the words for it until recently. I’ve been uncomfortable with she/her and with people treating me like a girl. I’ve also been teased and bullied for “not acting like a girl” before, and I think that made everything worse.
My parents don’t know I’m questioning anything, and some things they’ve said in the past, without realizing it, have made me feel even more pressured to be girly. I love them, but I’m scared to talk to them about this.
I’ve also been exploring a more gender-neutral name (for my IRL name- not online. I don't mind being called Zoey since it's my online name ^^). It feels more like me, but I’m terrified no one will accept it.
I’ve also been experiencing a lot of confusion about my gender. I don’t feel like a girl, but I don’t feel fully like a boy either. Then I learned about LGBTQ+ (Recently… Like three weeks ago) I’ve been trying he/him and he/they pronouns recently, and they feel surprisingly comfortable for me…
At the same time, I’m scared because my body isn’t male and nothing about me looks “boyish,” so I feel like I’m somehow doing something wrong even though the pronouns feel right.
I don’t really know what’s going to happen next. I don’t know what this means for my identity or how to tell people in my life. I just feel overwhelmed and confused, and I’m worried about losing people I care about.
I guess I’m just looking for someone who can listen and help me sort through all of this. I don’t want to mess anything up, and I don’t want to feel so panicky about my gender anymore.
