BILLIE

Dear You,
          
          Today you woke up. And whether you lied in bed all day, went out, or simply just cuddled up on the sofa and watched tv, you should know that you have succeeded already.
          
          Because you did it; You woke up and you stayed for another day.
          
          And you should be so damned proud of yourself.
          
          Because even though every day feels like a battle for you, you are fighting, and you are winning, even when you feel as if you are failing.
          
          So stop hurting yourself, stop self destructing and stop pushing people away, because you are beautiful.  You are worthy. And you are someone that is worth loving and fighting for.
          
          So do that for yourself, if not for anyone else.
          
          Love yourself.

That feeling when you are writing a book that you are aiming to make 35 chapters long, but are stuck on only the 7th chapter.
          
          

I was streaming the song 'If I Were A Boy' by Beyonce the other night and commented;
          
          "If I were a boy, I'd roll out of bed in the morning, 
          and throw on what I wanted and go"
          
          "Drink beer with the guys, and chase after girls"
          
          "If I were a boy I think I could understand  how it feels to love a girl,
          I swear I'd be a better man, I'd listen to her, cause I know how much it hurts"
          
          "If I were a boy..."
          
          Oh, wait, I'm but-But who cares?
          
          Reasons why I love being an independent,  bisexual girl who takes shit from nobody ^^
          
          And a guy replied;
          
          " But you are already trying to be a man lol . What logic."
          
          And I'm here thinking; Oh shit, sorry, I must not have gotten the memo when I was born that girls cant drink, hang out with guys or chase after girls . What a double standard.
          
          

My today's online classes end and i'm so going to attack all that you've written mwahahahah

I'm in a Haley Kiyoko mood right now, and am currently streaming "She", and when listening to it, the weirdest thing popped into mind.
          
          I am a bisexual girl who is tomboy.
          
          I like to dress tomboy/butch predominanty and girls find this attractive
          
          However,  guys don't dig it as much.
          
          When I dress more feminine I don't feel like myself, but guys like it, but girls not so much.
          
          Now, heres the catch; I prefer guys to girls, I connect with girls more romantically and emotionally rather than sexually, however I would settle down with the right woman. It's like a 60/40 balance.
          
          So...Is there a win situation here, or am I ultimately doomed?

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