It's hard to see someone close to you suffer a lot and you don't even have the power to console them. You don't have control over the situation and also over the people emotions. No matter how badly you want to help. But at some point. You can't.
The process of your feelings needs to be strong because once some emotions will kick in, you won't able to express the thoughts you hold. It hurt your soul when you kept trying to fight for too long.
@__justahuman- You have me. I know sometimes I don't come online and take time to reply but at the end of the day. I always want good for you and want to listen to you.