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Hello..if this isn't annoying you,please read..
          
          I would like your book to be entered in 'Centric Awards' or you can recommend struggling writers to join..
          
          They have one more horror slot and would really appreciate it if you join

WHOO HOOOOOOOO
          SPRING BREAK IS HERE AND WE ARE ALL READY TO PARTAYYYY
          except for me because me and my family literally can't afford to go on a vacation since i recently got surgery and we need to pay out hospital bills soooo....
          but then again my mom said that maybe my friends can come over for a sleepover so that's gonna be fun. 
          what about you guys?
          what are your plans?
          please let me know so i can feel happy for you <3

Please please please please update Expired!!!

heyy so I just wanted to make a quick message for all the peeps out there who don't celebrate Christmas but, like me, really want to. Ever since I was a little weeb my family never celebrated Christmas. While all my frens were waking up to presents under there tree, I woke up to a regular day. Well at least from my parents perspective. You see I have always wanted to celebrate Christmas. I didn't believe in Christianity but even though I wanted to have that jolly feeling that everyone around me had. I wanted to see the look on peoples faces knowing that they too are also excited about the upcoming event. I wanted to feel like this was something to look forward to. some of my frens aren't Christians either but they still celebrate it and every year I always wished that this was the year I was gonna be able to relate to them in that way. Because the holiday my family celebrates doesn't get much commotion as Christmas does. But I finally found out one day that I'm never going to celebrate it. at least not while I was living with my parents. So to all those out there who are like me, one day you will feel the jolly spirit. Hopefully.......

Quote of the week (even though its been a while)
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          "Every breath I take is an attempt of suicide" - My fren Andrea

Dear Tyler Joseph,
          After a long time of thinking this note though, I finally came up with the words to say. Tyler, throughout my life I have struggled with many things. I had to keep a certain image most of my life so I can hide my true self when I came home. Sometimes I never wanted to leave school because I can be my true self when I'm there but at the same time, I can't be myself because of the kids around me judging me. I have struggled with Depression and Anxiety. I have parents who, no matter how hard I try, I come home and they tell me "You're not good enough". They tell me "You're too weak". I have gotten to the point where I look in the mirror and I can't see myself dealing with this anymore. I couldn't live anymore. But then I discovered twenty-one pilots. I listen to there music over and over and over again. I cried when I first listened to them because I knew the meaning behind the songs that you wrote. I for once in my life felt not alone. I felt I wasn't alone. I knew I wasn't alone. Do you know how much that meant to me? I for once in my life felt that others like me were out there. And I realize that 29 years ago when you were born, that's when it all started. If it wasn't for that day, twenty-one pilots would have never been, and to tell you the truth, I seriously wouldn't be alive today if it wasn't because of you. I would have been dead long ago if I declined my friends offer to listen to a song she liked. You helped me Tyler. You helped many others too. I still feel like there is no point in life sometimes. I still have a lot of dark nights. There are more things going on in my life then what I just listed above. And I still need to find my own personal kitchen sink, but in the meantime, your words can help me stay alive until I do. I truly appreciate all you have done for me throughout my life. I respect you to a large extent and I want you to know that. Happy Birthday, TyJo. Stay Alive.........for me........for us
          Your fairly local fren
          Aya

tomorrow is the one and only tyjos birthday
          i mean think about it 
          if it wasn't for him being born 
          i don't think i would be alive today
          hmmmm
          well im dressing like him in school tomorrow and everyone is gonna think im a weirdo which i am lol

Quote of the week
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          "Okay everybody this next song is called 'im suffering ' and it's me smashing my head into the piano and screaming. hope you like it, it's a bop" - Tyler Joseph

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          "9th graders are like ants on steroids" - Spanish Substitute Teacher

my doctor told me not to drink coffee because it triggers my anxiety and unfortunately today I decided not to listen to him. now I'm working on my 5th cup of coffee while having a panic attack.................help me