@_Youmu_ I'm so sorry for your loss. My colondolences. May they rest in peace. I've been to a couple of funerals myself because of people that I have lost, and no, they are very painful and heartbreaking, especially if it's your first one. If you ever need to talk to someone, don't be afraid to reach out. Not only for your physical and mental health, but just because talking to someone helps, trust me. You're not alone in this.