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i can’t be the only one that thinks all my friendships are one-sided, right? like, i feel like all these people that i truly genuinely love and care for and put all my trust in are just my friends because they pity me or they wish they never started talking to me in the first place. no one is being salty or shady, my mind is just telling me that this is how it is. really, the only reason i’m growing distant from my friends is because i’m purposefully isolating myself from them because i feel like they would be better off without me. but, i wouldn’t be better off without them. i wish i could just go back and rewind the past few months. everything is kinda shit right now but i am forcing myself to stay happy and smiling even though that’s probably the opposite of what i feel. fuck, dude. the world would just be better off without me in it.
sorry for the random rant. also, the timing of this rant is pretty bad. i promise these are my true genuine feelings and not some sick april fools joke.