I have been struggling to put all these into words and chosen not to talk about how i have been feeling for a long time. But now i really feel like sharing a bit of my thoughts with u guys, cause sometimes it just feels better to talk.
Have u Ever felt like life is playing jokes on you? Like u are a pawn in this cruel game? Ever felt like u deserved something better, u worked hard for something so bad and always tried to live up to your principles only to see the opportunity get snatched away from u? Ever just got tired of people? Their fakeness, tired of nodding along to their useless rants? Tired of everything?
I know i sound bitter but Thats how i feel now, really. I have been struggling with this crap for a year, i have had ups and down before and i know thats just how life is. But sometimes, when u really value something, u work really hard for it, at that time, standing in the sideline, watching it get taken away from u is heart wrenching. I know people are going through stuffs worse than my silly problem but honestly i dont know how all these crap are supposed to be good for me. Ig everything happens for a reason. Alhamdulillah for all that i have, really. But seriously its hard to shake off this negative feeling. I just hope i can get my old self back.
