Brooklyn

My love’s birthday is on Monday. It’s the third one I’ve celebrated with him but the first one since we’ve lived in the same state. 
          
          This is all I’ve ever wanted in life. 

I moving back home in a few months and I’m so so excited to be moving in with my best friend. I’m excited to no longer be in a LDR

So excited to see my love tomorrow night. I’m excited to finally being able to celebrate our anniversary in person 

I have a lot of siblings. So it was a shock when my step mom told me she was pregnant. She was due on the 12th and that got me excited. My 16 year old sister’s birthday is February 10th and my 14 year old brother was born on February 16th. I thought it would be cool to have three siblings born a week apart. It was awesome when my step mom’s water broke early morning on the 16th. I figured my dreams would become a reality. But no, my newborn baby sister decided to be a little shit and be born this morning at 12:03am. Six days past her due date. 
          
          In all seriousness, I’m excited she’s here. My step mom was in labor for almost two days. I can’t wait to see pictures and to hold her in two weeks 

Also I guess I’ve been on this app for nine years now?! Wtf. 

Yesterday was my last day at my job. I’ve been with that place for over four years and I’m so glad that I’m gone. I only stayed because of my co worker but then she passed away earlier this year and there was no point in me being there. I’m thankful to be out of there. I need to heal from all of the shit I’ve gone through there. I think I can really do that now that I’m no longer there. I’m really excited to be moving to Oregon in the next couple of weeks and I’m excited to meet my new co workers. Hopefully they aren’t as immature and obnoxious as my old co workers. 

10 years ago today, One Direction became a band. 
          
          I’ve been a fan of them for over eight years now. I keep on reminiscing over how big of an impact they had on my life before they went on hiatus. 
          
          One of the first things that pops into mind is how that band took me to a place that wasn’t where I was currently in. I could escape reality for hours at a time and just listen to their music and read those old crappy fan fics. Hell, I have over 100+ chapters that I wrote in the drafts dedicated to them alone. 
          
          I also think about the fandom. That crazy ass fandom. How I used to run an update account on IG with my friend Matilda and how much fun it was. How I was able to have a lot of late night conversations with fellow fans. How emotionally invested I was into all of that. That fandom was like a family when I was super involved in it. 
          
          I think about the first time I had ever learned about them. Mr. Hoback’s class in 1st period science class when I was in 8th grade. How I tried so, so hard to not fall into the bandwagon and fall in love with them (that didn’t last long lol). 
          
          The first time I realized I liked them was when Same Mistakes started playing on YouTube. 
          
          I remember those late nights as we waited for new songs, albums, and merch to come out. I remember seeing them live twice. 
          
          For a long ass time, One Direction was my sole source of happiness. Even though I’m not invested in the fandom and that I don’t really listen to their music, this all brings me joy. 
          
          10 years....wow. Here’s to 10 more. 

My first day of work after being shut down was today. A day I thought would happen with my best friend by my side. I guess she was in a way. The memories that we have at work will always be there. She may not have been there in person today, but I l like to think she was next to me in spirit. I love you my Twin. I miss you more than anything. 

I graduated from college today. Can’t believe I actually did it. Some of the hardest years of my life but I’ve also made the best memories. I also got 100/100 on my business project so I’m proud of myself for that. 

I’m so devastated with what’s been happening today. I’ve seen so many live videos and so many posts that show that so many of the protests today were made violent by the police force and remained violent until the end. I saw Odessa Adlon’s IG Live where she was boxed in and couldn’t leave the protest and yet the police were threatening to shoot them with rubber bullets if they didn’t leave. I saw Zach Kornfeld’s videos on twitter of how the LA protest was peaceful and then the police started shooting at them and hitting them with tear gas. I saw a young girl get maced in Seattle for no reason. 
          
          George Floyd and many, many others did not deserve to die. This is how we say that. Everyone today practiced their first amendment rights and the police had to come in and ruin everything. I know that not all cops are bad, and I know there were people at those protests were mainly there to cause a riot, but the cops shown today surely were not good and most of the riots didn’t start until after the protesters were provoked by the police. America’s system is f*ucked up. Black Lives Matter. RIP to those who were innocent.