샤나

Last night was a nightmare; like a hell.

I've been f***ed up. Stop expecting too much from me.

It's ok when your physical is tired because you still can bear with it. But if your mental is tired it would drained all of your energy– and this make the physical tired like shit. You can't do anything if your mental is problematic. 

I wish I could face myself. The evil spirit inside me always make me feel anxious. It's embarrassed when I cried in front the teacher, my mom and others. What a tears drama. My mental is burning like hell. I think I really "love myself" until I keep get mad at myself whenever I did wrong– cursing on myself. The voice inside me keep fighting each other and suddenly I remember 'him' insults me whenever I did wrong. I think he's the reason why I hate myself since he was the one who is make my childhood trauma. He abused me mentally.

:)