"Here goes nothing... I hate them. I truly hate them all. I hate them because even with what they did i still love them."
"lying can create an unfeeling, cold hearted, treacherous beast. One that lies with evey word spoken. A human with no humanity....... in other words me."
tears start dripping from my eyes as i continue on speaking.
"but perhaps that could be changed. If i met someone who was so good they could take the bad out of both of us. maybe then i wouldnt lie."
"But if you took away lying from me you wouldnt be left with anything. My life is consisted of constant and untrue words that i now speak like its own language."
"But in every lie there is still a hidden truth."
I finished of being on the verge of sobbing, but i realized that crying wouldnt help me, it only showed weak points, that couldn't be an option.
I wiped away the rest of the tears. And put on a mask concealing any type of enmotion that just escaped.
I regretted opening up about it
It makes the whole matter even worse.
I sat silence waiting for a reply that i dreaded. I must've waited at least ten minutes with still no rely, there was still no sign of there coming any anytime soon either.