The day you realize you can't love, is the day all your true happiness is gone. You'll sit there at night holding yourself wondering "What did I do wrong?" When in reality you did nothing. As you feel that first tear fall down your cheek you ask yourself, "When did this start?"
"Was it when you realized your family didn't love as much as they once did? Was it when you stood up and took the hit so someone you loved wouldn't have to? Was it when you first read the threat to your life? was it when the person you wanted to be with for the rest of your life left you? Was it when you noticed that nothing was OKAY? When was it?!"
You don't know. You will never know. All you will do is feel, and feel, and feel the pain that started in the depth of your heart5, causing your emotional state to go unstable and your physical state to follow. You sit there crying, hoping no one would hear you because you had no answer to give to the question "Are you okay?"
So, instead you sleep and smile and pretend that everything was okay, because that's what you've grown to do since this whole thing begun.
