haaaiii, this will be my diary. i’m drowsy and it’s literally 4:55 am rn. but i dunno if i will find a loyal guy in future. it’s just hard to find someone who can read your emotions like through in your empty eyes not fake smile. i’m too anxious not knowing if i will ever be in pain again. hey, pain is just temporary but death is permanent. i just can’t put myself in a cruel situations. i have to get out from it. what if their feelings slowly fading away? that’s what i’m fear the most. love is really complicated. i need to stop thinking of those stuffs. oh yeah, one of my lovely best friend/bro said “if you’re going through hell, keep going.” it means that don’t give up on life even you’re really suffering but you gotta beat the pain no matter how dark it got. every time you think about hurting yourself or suicide or anything. i want you to think about those words. (i stole his precious sentences hehe xD)
ya know what? i should stop worrying about the small matters. i should focus on my life and be a successful girl like what my precious friends said to me haha. they are really amazing, i’m really lucky to meet them even it’s just an internet. they always there whenever i need them especially the guy who i used to love and happy with. i just hope i can find my soulmate when i’m an adult. so, let’s the desire wish come true!
okie, i’ll sleep rn. goodnight.
hope y’all have an amazing day today!
love y’all angels ❤️
-Your precious Hana ♡
