Virge

i love when my father and brother make fun of my tics and make me wanna cry

i have a session tomorrow that my mom is going to be apart of for once
          
          
          
          
          haha
          
          
          
          im in danger

so i know a couple of my followers on here age regress and I'm kind of directing this towards them but others can give their imput as well especially if you're a caregiver
          
          so recently(about a couple months ago) i developed a little space
          
          and i wanted to know if you had any tips?
          
          like I'm not ready to open up about this to my family yet so any tips of how to hide it
          
          or any tips about it really
          
          

That moment when you're brain wants you to do something but it won't focus enough to do anything
          
          
          Yay

Ok I am just going to say I'm enby for now
          
          Because I'm somewhere outside the binary I just don't know where
          
          So I want from 
          
          _genderfluid_trash_ 
          
          to 
          
          _enby_bitch_

Gender is confusing
          
          I seriously don't know what I am anymore

1. Update on my mom and doctor thinking I don't have ADD 
          
          My therapist is going to talk to him about it and change his mind because my mom knows jack shit about me
          
          2. I am going to be on my tablet on wattpad for about a week because my phone broke
          
          3. I never really have said anything about this on here but I never really had a period and so I went to the doctors to see what could be the problem
          
          And with how it's going right now I'm pretty sure I'm getting one soon because I am being just like my mother before she gets here and yeahhh
          
          Just a small update

my mom and doctor: *saying i dont have ADD*
          
          me with all the symptoms: *confusion*
          
          and i have yet to talk to my therapist about this because my appointment today got cancelled

woohoo mad at my mom again
          
          okay since covid is a thing, my doctor that prescribes me my medication does telehealth instead of in person and he calls my mom for these meetings, and she was at work at the time of the meeting
          
          and my mom knows my medication that I'm currently on isn't working
          
          so WHY AM I STILL GOING TO BE TAKING THEM AND ANOTHER MEDICATION
          
          WHAT THE FUCK
          
          and they also discussed that they think i don't have ADD and instead i have bipolar but I'm too young to be diagnosed
          
          so that is the new medication I'm taking
          
          thing is tho that i had pretty much all the symptoms of ADD that have lasted for awhile
          
          but they say "it would have been apparent by like 8"
          
          why just WHY would they discuss this shit without me
          
          can't wait to talk to my therapist on Tuesday

TW: Mention of a relapse
          
          Why did I have to relapse so bad the other dayy
          
          It's soo hot in my school and I am wearing long sleeves (it's a flannel so not that heavy but still)
          
          Especially in my geometry class like holy shit
          
          Yeah just me whining about my stupid depressed ass