i miss you. rania. i do. it's a little silly to mention it now, when i wanted to say it so many times before. since i first found you, since i first started talking to you, i felt an inexplicable, undescribable love for you. i felt like i knew you in a past life, i wanted to sincerely connect. since the first time i read your works you have a deep permanent place in my heart. in my soul, روح. i will always love you, hold you close. you left an impact on me, you inspired me, you left me lost for words, you had me holding out my hands, & you held them back. i carry the memory of you so that you never are always here. just as many do. you left a collective impact, you are immortal. i wish i knew you better, i wish i was more of a friend to you, but this is only a selfish thought, an emphasis on 'i'. you are in the sky, rania, a star was born when you left this realm, your soul carries on when your body gave way. you are now released from the torment of this world. may you be at rest for all eternity. blessed be the loving entity that so many named 'رانيا', "she who reigns". blessed be she who reigns the hearts of many, in the past life, this life & the next.