_himeros_

Hello babes, 
          	
          	I want to clear some things up.
          	
          	I’ve read what you all have had to say and I appreciate the feedback and support. I want to make sure you are all aware of next steps.
          	
          	I will not be uploading the website or updating the books at this time.
          	
          	When it came to the week I publishing I realized I would be drawn back into not only maintaining, paying, and housing a new website but I would still be having to write and update even when I no longer felt connected to any of it. It would be another year of dealing with copyright, fighting for my books to stay up, dealing with Wattpad and then an entire website. I would be back to dealing with plagiarizers and rude readers and dms about how terrible I was while dealing with my life falling apart at the seams. All of these things and interactions, slowly picked away at my passion to write. Wattpad had become toxic from me and despite me wanting to separate from Himmy, I would have no choice if i decided to upload.
          	
          	So I chose what was best for me.
          	
          	You are allowed to feel angry, sad, betrayed, disappointed, I understand and don’t negate your emotions and how you are feeling from the news. I knew above all else, I couldn’t put myself fully back into this world when I’m not mentally 100% okay. I can’t be in the hospital one day and updating the next or dealing with depression and forcing myself to update because people say I’m horrible or a liar. Last year was the worst year of my life and I’m sorry I couldn’t keep the promises I made but I hope you know I tried.
          	
          	I love you all so much no matter what. I’m sorry if sharing my story and previous trauma felt like a trauma dump to make you forget or to have an excuse. I just wanted to be truthful with how I was feeling. My mental health is the biggest reason why I am stepping away and I knew I had to be honest with my reasons.
          	
          	I hope you can understand.

OhHowIronic

@_himeros_ that is completely fine. I want you to know though you inspired me to get more into reading and write myself, I absolutely love and adore you and don’t force yourself to write if you don’t like it anymore. Thank you for changing a ton of people’s lives for the better including me, keep yourself safe and your family, God bless
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ifyouseemehereudidnt

@_himeros_ get back well soon my lovely writer im in a awe of your creation till the day the time stops
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deformedwaffle0

@_himeros_ I just saw a comment further down about Himmy's announcement to stop writing all together. It took me some time to realize this, but yall I think she's done for good. No more Beg for it, no more Kill for it, no more anything. This is the end of an era. 
          	  
          	  I just wanted to say I am so happy to have come across your page. I discovered Wattpad in 2020 and your books were some of the first I came across. Your writing always sounded poetic, like art even. Your characters were always so dynamic and complex. Estrella, Vee, Silas...it felt as though they were real people with real emotions. Your writing helped me recognize my own passion for writing, and has inspired me to write my own books. I am praying for you and hope that you heal someday from your trauma!! Even if you never return to Wattpad, I wish you all the best in life!
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