_himeros_

Hello babes, 
          	
          	I want to clear some things up.
          	
          	I’ve read what you all have had to say and I appreciate the feedback and support. I want to make sure you are all aware of next steps.
          	
          	I will not be uploading the website or updating the books at this time.
          	
          	When it came to the week I publishing I realized I would be drawn back into not only maintaining, paying, and housing a new website but I would still be having to write and update even when I no longer felt connected to any of it. It would be another year of dealing with copyright, fighting for my books to stay up, dealing with Wattpad and then an entire website. I would be back to dealing with plagiarizers and rude readers and dms about how terrible I was while dealing with my life falling apart at the seams. All of these things and interactions, slowly picked away at my passion to write. Wattpad had become toxic from me and despite me wanting to separate from Himmy, I would have no choice if i decided to upload.
          	
          	So I chose what was best for me.
          	
          	You are allowed to feel angry, sad, betrayed, disappointed, I understand and don’t negate your emotions and how you are feeling from the news. I knew above all else, I couldn’t put myself fully back into this world when I’m not mentally 100% okay. I can’t be in the hospital one day and updating the next or dealing with depression and forcing myself to update because people say I’m horrible or a liar. Last year was the worst year of my life and I’m sorry I couldn’t keep the promises I made but I hope you know I tried.
          	
          	I love you all so much no matter what. I’m sorry if sharing my story and previous trauma felt like a trauma dump to make you forget or to have an excuse. I just wanted to be truthful with how I was feeling. My mental health is the biggest reason why I am stepping away and I knew I had to be honest with my reasons.
          	
          	I hope you can understand.