_hoetanii

hello everyone, i’m finally back to writing. wanted to say a massive thank you to everyone who reached out to check in on me. reading your gentle words about my mental health honestly meant more than i can put into words. there were days where i didn’t think i had it in me to keep going, but seeing your support is genuinely the reason i’m still here and still pushing through with these stories. thank you for being such a safe space for me.

En_hypen_gene

@hoeetani  it always amazes me how we cld fell safe with people who's a total stranger.. I'm glad to hear you're doing great tho!
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Inuiswifey

Awwwhh!! Glad to see you back ml <3 i really hope things are going good for you, we love you smm!! There’s no need to rush w the stories so take as much time as you need <333 excited for the new chapters!! <3
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wacharia

Happy to see you back!!! Sending you lots of love and please keep taking things one day at a time. We’re very exited for upcoming chapters, so thanks you!! 
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_hoetanii

hello everyone, i’m finally back to writing. wanted to say a massive thank you to everyone who reached out to check in on me. reading your gentle words about my mental health honestly meant more than i can put into words. there were days where i didn’t think i had it in me to keep going, but seeing your support is genuinely the reason i’m still here and still pushing through with these stories. thank you for being such a safe space for me.

En_hypen_gene

@hoeetani  it always amazes me how we cld fell safe with people who's a total stranger.. I'm glad to hear you're doing great tho!
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Inuiswifey

Awwwhh!! Glad to see you back ml <3 i really hope things are going good for you, we love you smm!! There’s no need to rush w the stories so take as much time as you need <333 excited for the new chapters!! <3
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wacharia

Happy to see you back!!! Sending you lots of love and please keep taking things one day at a time. We’re very exited for upcoming chapters, so thanks you!! 
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angel_lhyneee

Good day, author! I'm here to say that your stories are masterpieces, but so are you. So we're more than willing to wait for you to come back happy and healthy. Please prioritize your well-being first, writing is a passion, not an obligation. So I hope you don't feel obligated to update! We're always here to wait for you

_hoetanii

@angel_lhyneee thank you so much, love. thank you for being kind to me.
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ixCloudiixX

Hello, Author! I wanna say that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE EVERYTHING YOU WRITE!! You write them so well, so detailed that it’s like I can feel the emotions you set to the characters' personalities and it’s just amazing how you describe them so well, so on point! You are amazing and how you write is even better! I hope that writing stories like these doesn't burn you out! You can always take your time and rest. It’s okay to take breaks, to disappear,
          
          I know that we aren't close personally, but I just wanna say that please don't give up :). If you ever feel lonely, exhausted or down, just know that people who have seen or read your stories are amazed by how you write them so well and how talented you are. It’s okay to take breaks, to disappear, but just know that we are happy to be able to read your amazing works!
          

_hoetanii

@ixCloudiixX thank you so much. this is making me emotional. thank you for being kind to me.
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_hoetanii

i'm honestly & completely so exhausted. writing was the only reason i had any will to live left. i’d force out 20k or 30k words in a single chapter just to distract myself from the k#lling myself, but now the motivation is gone and i'm losing every bit of will to live. 
          
          i'll be okay dw. i just wanna let out my emotions. 

Inuiswifey

@hoeetani of course!! I really hope things get better for you pookie, you honestly deserve the best <333
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Zer0Username

 @hoeetani of course.  I've been there pretty regularly.  I've got CPTSD and the statistics on that are not good.  It's not easily treatable and we tend to end up like rooftop Mikey when we have a bad day.  There's zero judgement from me.   Sometimes talking things out and doing things you like isn't enough to get at the compounded stress.  That's where you have to be proactive and see what works for you.  It could be a mini vacation, going to the club to meet someone, or like me getting absolutely out of it for awhile to reset my thought pattern and push down the trauma/panic response.  Honestly, I think I would do well on ketamine treatments but I am actually improving with less episodes.  There's options... It's just finding what works and trying not to have it be too self destructive at the same time.  
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_hoetanii

@favouritebrunette awwwe thank you so much for your kind words and i'll take those seriously. i really appreciate your tips & advice. i'm sorry that you experienced the same situation i am dealing rn and i hope your mental health get better soon. may the cruel world treat us gently.  
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_hoetanii

hey everyone. sorry for being m.i.a. lately. i’ve been dealing with a lot of personal stuff & life has been throwing too many problems my way lately and i’m just burnt out. no motivation to update when everything feels so heavy. i’ll be back when i’m feeling a bit more like myself.

BI-QUEEN-FOR-ANIME

@hoeetani You have every right as a person to take a break, and you have an even bigger right as a writer to relax and find that spark again. It will take time, and that's okay, nobody should judge you for it. We'll wait as long as we need until you feel ready again, life is hard and pushy but it gets better.
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Sora_07

@hoeetani Feeling burnt out is normal as coming out ideas isn't that easy. Pls take care of yourself we'll wait for the upcoming stories what you have in store
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jnnfreads

@hoeetani it’s okayyy author, i know the feeling of burnt out and it is really hard to do anything. take care author  
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_hoetanii

unable to upload new chapters until next week as i’m currently balancing a lot in my personal life, especially with academics. i don't have a specific schedule set for next week yet, but here is what you can expect for the upcoming updates:
          
          ​the deal – one chapter (smut/threesome)
          
          ​aftertaste – two or three chapters, depending on how the writing flows
          
          ​the chase – one chapter
          
          ​i’m aiming to make each of these chapters at least 8k to 10k words long. ​additionallyyy, i’ll be uploading the remaining chapters of possession (sanzu haruchiyo) that are currently sitting in my drafts, as well as updates for strings attached while i continue working on other books hihihi.
          
          ​i’m currently juggling more than eight books at the moment, including my kakucho project, (detective) rindou fanfic, and a foursome oneshot! ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

Inuiswifey

AAAA THATS COMPLETELY FINE POOKIE, TAKE UR TIME, WE LOVE YOU SMM <333
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WynterRaevenRose

Girl!  You come first!  Writing is a hobby; not a job!  Just make sure you back up your work onto an external hard drive or something.  Maybe finish the stories that are close to done?  That way you can spend time with the WIPs that are really flowing with you.  ‍♀️
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