Every time I am almost sure that I have understood everything, something happens, I am unimaginably surprised. No matter how many times this happens, I will be stunned like the first time. I'm not used to being surprised. But this feeling is certainly quite interesting. I don't understand how "man" works, so I'm surprised. I'm surprised at people. What they are... Noble, brave, kind, loyal, beautiful, cruel, aggressive, manipulative, narcissistic, vile. So different. Everyone will surprise you with something, just at the moment when it seems to me that people are impossibly boring creatures. Why can't I be surprised? Of course, my actions can turn into a shock and make you think about my adequacy. But I wonder how I can't do them. Why?